Mc贼

Looks like whining in my blog helps? Irritating Bb bought me Mc贼 last night :P 可怜的贼van has to be put up for auction. Still wanna thank Bro Bear for getting 贼van for me. I really really appreciate it :) If not for your statement saying why wanna keep 2 of the same kind I would have kept 贼van too :P Thanks again, Bro Bear!!

Irritating Bb said he had wanted to collect all 4 designs before giving them to me. But he saw my 'fierce' post yesterday he had no choice but to give me Mc贼 first. I said he's just finding excuses!! If he really wanted to get for me why wait till last minute den go and buy? (Yesterday was the last day for Hamburglar Kitty and he only bought it yesterday!!) He always likes to do such last min shit. Where got ppl propose 2 days before ROM? My irritating Bb lor!! He has to make me flare up den he'll do something abt it. Den he'll say I'm impatient and getting angry over small matter. WTH!

On our first year anniversary, he din make any plans. I quarreled with him den he ordered white lilies on the day itself and delivered it to my house and brought me out for dinner. He was lucky. Usually white lilies need to be pre-ordered.

He says I'm too impatient right? So I din say anything for Vday. I just kept quiet. As I expected, nothing happened. No dinner, no present, no flowers. Not even words of happy valentine's day from him! So when I don't make a fuss, I don't get anything. So was it really true like what he claimed that he had everything all planned out and I was too impatient to wait for his 'plans' to happen?? You be the judge.

The above are just some examples of him doing last min shit and trying to find excuses for the things he  failed to do. I'm really tired of having to make a fuss before he'll do something. I'm psychoing and making myself numb from him being like this. Deep down I know I still love him that's why I'll get upset over such stuff. One day when I'm totally numbed from all these will be the time when all love is gone. Only when love does not exist will one not care about what the other party did or did not do. That will be the time I'm the one doing the 'conveniently ignoring' stunt.

Conveniently Ignored

Sometimes I really don't understand what's going through his head. If hinting is not sufficient, I just tell him directly but he still can conveniently ignore what I said.

For example I whatsapp him this:

And added saying, "BB I want this!"

He didn't even reply me at all! When I asked him did he see what I sent him? He asked, "What did you send me?" He did receive it. It's there in his inbox BUT he just didn't see it. How conveniently been ignored.

This is just one of the incident.

I didn't receive anything from him on Christmas, Valentine's Day, Anniversary, whatever special occasion you can think of I don't receive anything from him! Yes! Nothing! I got the necklace on my bday bcos I asked for it and have to drag him down to the jewelry shop and got him to buy it for me! How pitiful :( He WILL NOT get me anything on these special occasions how can I even dream of him getting me little surprise gifts occasionally? It's harder than striking 4D!

I know he reads my blog. But did he do anything about it? NO HE WILL NEVER. He just hold onto his disclaimer: I am not the romantic type so don't expect such acts from me. F**k his disclaimer!!

I tried all ways and means to put it across to him how I wanted to be loved. But nothing works. Yes, he bought me herbal tea when I was sick. He passed me money when I am broke. But does he has to wait till I'm sick then he will show that he cares? Or wait till I got so stressed up with money and no job till I break down and cry then he realizes he needs to support me financially?

I asked him to watch the episode on knowing your spouse's lover language and speaking the language on Pillow Talk. He said he will do so but, as usual, he didn't. Some women enjoys being complimented by their partners. Some women enjoys receiving little gifts of surprise. Some women enjoys their partners doing things which they love with them. Being a typical Aquarius, I want a little of everything. I get bored easily hence I need varieties to keep me interested.

To me, I strongly believes that if the guy has the heart to speak his partner's lover language, he will do it. Irregardless whether he is the romantic kind or not! F**k his disclaimer again!!

Guys, you think it's difficult? No! Definitely not!! Just compliment her when she puts on a new dress. Get her a little gift when you are out. Take her out to do stuff SHE enjoys (not YOU enjoy!). I don't see what's so difficult about doing these! How do you naive guys think a relationship will sustain without putting in effort?? You only know how to complain how unreasonable we girls are. How demanding we are. But have you though about how much we have tolerated you guys as well? Tolerating your laziness, dirtiness, insensitiveness, and the list goes on.

I know after I post this, he would read it. But he'll continue to pretend he didn't read this and continue with his ignorance act.

Currently, I still do have positive balance in our love bank. Will till it depletes to zero and becomes negative, he don't regret.

Hope I Made the Right Decision

A follow up on my previous post. I thut I have made the decision but I was tempted by the $$$. The amount they offered me was more than what I had expected! So I decided to go for the one which offers me more $$$ and higher post. I hope I made the right decision. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!

Bathing him every morning is my favorite moment spent with him :)

I started 'preparing' BB Mck that I'm going to work soon. I'll stroke his hair and tell him to be good boy when mummy is out for work. He seems to understands what I'm telling him. He sticks to me like super glue after that. Seeing him like that makes me go awwww... I don't wanna go work le!!! BUT cannot!! No $$$ liao. Must learn to let go a bit. Hope he don't forget mummy and stick to nai nai after I start work :( I'll miss bathing him in the morning....

When I grow up I wanna be.....

(Source: Bad Teacher, Columbia Pictures)

What was your ambition when you were young? Teacher? I believe many of us wrote that in our compositions back in primary school. I didn't want to conform to the norm so I wrote I wanted to be a nurse. (But later I found out that I will faint at the sight of blood so no Ms Florence Nightingale job for me.)

When I was in secondary school, I wanted to join the police force. (Due to the influence of too much HK police drama series.) Hence I joined the NPCC in school. I got lazy in JC and the thought of becoming a police soon faded off.

I don't know when did I started to have this noble ambition. To be a full time housewife. Don't you dare laugh at me!! It's the toughest, underpaid, have to work 24/7 and unappreciated job. I remembered I once told my mum why I wanted to be a full time housewife. Because I don't want to miss any significant moment of my kids' growing up. I want to nurture them on my own. I also want to decorate the house I want it to be. Making sure my hubby wears ironed, clean clothes to work and returns home to warm, yummylicious dinner are my KPIs. With this ambition in mind, my decision to accept which job offer is crystal clear. It may be a more boring job, lesser room for advancement, but all these are not my priorities. My family, my hubby and my baby are. What is a few hundreds more compared to the time spent with the ones I love?

I wanna thank my hubby for all the support he has given me throughout this period. Be it emotionally, mentally or financially. He is not romantic, even though I big hint, small hint and even tell him directly I want a present on Mother's Day he still DIDN'T get me one... but he definitely loves me many many and will be there for me, always. I love my Silly, Lazy, Piggy Hubby :)

Happy Mother's Day!!

Celebrated Mother's Day yesterday at Carousel. It's my first Mother's Day being a mummy :D I'm happy to be able to celebrate this day with 2 other great mums!!

It has been a really long time since we last took a family photo. Especially with new additions, a family is a MUST during this joyous occasion :) This should be how my happy family should be like. As one grows older, I become more and more sentimental. Putting more weight on the people I love above any other things. I wish that my family stays this way with only new additions like wc's wife and more grandchildren. I want my no. 2 to be a baby girl!!! :X