Job Search

I have been searching for a job ever since I was on confinement. Until now, I have no luck in securing a job :( I've been to 3 interviews so far. 2 from the government sector and 1 from the pte. The first one all seems to be going well until they told me that they going to relocate to Jurong!! I nearly fainted on the spot. Sigh... The 2nd one is like a boring job. Although the title says Manager but I have no kah kias to do the ground work for me. I have to do everything from A-Z myself! The Manager is to manage the accounts, not staff. The 3rd interview was yesterday. I was so desperately in need of a job, I just spam my resumes at any job offer which I fits the requirement last week. And this company called me up for interview. All was going well again when thunder struck me again :( As pte companies are very different from govt, one don't get to knock off on time. The interviewer stressed that I will have to commit a lot of time and effort on the job. With my newborn, would I be able to commit such hours to build up my career? I know I can't bear to leave my precious at home and chiong my career. I just need a job to get some supplementary income. Getting far and moving up is not my concern now. I need a job that provides stability and enables me to have work-life balance. A govt job fits the bill perfectly. But so far no luck on that. Or they are simply too slow in processing.... They can be as slow as waited until 2 months later then inform you that you are hired! But I cannot leave that to chance. What if I'm not hired? I just need to continue searching.

Something which the interviewer said yesterday made me really upset. She's just one year older than me. But earning many times more than I do. She posted me a question, "Did you find that you are being underpaid by drawing a pay of $3700 previously?" Of cos I did. But it's a trade-off. While I spent 6 years in the govt sector I get to knock off on time at 6 and enjoy life outside work. Whereby my peers are still slogging away in office. But 6 years later, I'm still nothing whereby they have already reached their peak in their careers like becoming AVPs, Senior Managers, etc. They traded their time to achieve these and now they get to enjoy the fruit from their hard work when they are young. Somehow I had the feeling that I had chosen the wrong career path back then. Wasting 6 years of my time in achieving nothing. My working experience is worth nothing and I can't get any job. Not even back in the govt sector.

The only and best thing which happened to me from choosing to work in the govt sector is that I have my doting hubby and lovely son now. So what do I want in life? Is is true that we cannot have a blissful family and be a high achiever in our career? If I really have to choose between the 2, I will still choose my family. So now, even if I have to suffer a heavy pay cut to secure a job, I'll still take it. With all the expenses a child needs and our flat coming soon, everything needs money. I don't need a lot, just enough for everything essential, I'm contented. Buddha, Jesus, Allah, all the Gods and deities, please please let me ace the next interview and bring back the dough soon. I mean real soon...