纪恋毅

平静的海浪
吹起愁思幽幽
淡淡的微笑
掀起梦影重重
亿万的不舍
不敌一声别离
朦胧的未来
有负一片痴心
浓浓的爱意
遗憾竟成定局
宁静的夜里
心碎泛起漣漪

七月初七七巧节

在一年前的七巧节..... 我写了这首诗...

海风吹乱了你的头发
宁静的夜里
我们听到了让人平静的海浪声
你说你爱大海
我淡淡地微笑着
你说你怕这一切只是梦幻
我无法将分手说出口
虽然心里亿万个不愿意
但看不见未来的爱
我没有勇气面对
原谅我的自私
不是我不爱了只是我无法再爱了
宁静的夜里
我们听到了彼此心碎的声音

Why choose to leave when you cannot let go?

There are simply too many breakups around me lately. Including myself is a victim of this breakup hurricane. When I think Mr Ex's reason is lame, and feel really 'bu gan yuan' over it, I heard others who are worse off. Somehow it made me felt better?

This gf of mine, her mum juz passed away. The bf went MIA. She called him the day b4 her mum passed away and asked him to accompany her to the hospital to see her mum one last time and she need his support. He refused. The only reason he gave was, "I just don't feel like it. Don't force me." After that he went MIA. *poof* simply disappeared! He didn't pick up her calls, didn't reply her smses... Even when mutual frens ask him to attend the wake, he said he's not free. What kind of bf is this? Left without a word when she was at her lowest. Some guys are really bas*ards!

A guy fren of mine, his gf left him and got attached to another guy. But she's still be affected by how he feels and what he posts on FB. His comments make her feel hurt. If you choose to leave den leave. Why still some and stir up the emotions making my fren feel that there's hope? Bringing him thr a roller coaster ride. I've been thr the roller coaster, I know how terrible it feels. It's not easy to stand up again and move on.

I am moving on with my life. Though I'm like a toddler learning how to walk now, I know I will be able to run, jump and hop in time to come. Sometimes, I feel that he's the one who hasn't got over it. Still having the perception that I still feel for him and want us to be back together. Delibrately wanting to keep a distance, talking like as though I owe him de. Wanting me to hate him. Why should I hate him? Hating someone is tiring. Having no feelings towards the person is best way out. I no longer feel the love, neither do I feel hatred. My emptiness is the lack of a companion. Someone to be there for me. It's different from a fren being there. I don't know how to explain the difference. It's a special feel.

Feel the warmth of My Family

Spent my weekend back at Grandpa's. Grandpa was shocked to see me. Hahaha... Cos he wasn't expecting I will be there. He even called my mum to tell her that I was there! Hahaha... So cute... He tinks I ran away from home n my mum didn't know I was there? keke... I shld go back more often to see him. He has really aged so much. Sometimes I cannot make out the words he was saying. But he still can cook dinner for us :) Though it was not fantastic and have lobster or what, it's the love tat I could feel from his cooking. How much he dotes on us although he nv say it to us.

Enjoyed myself there and I thought about a lot of stuff over the weekend. I have put down the unhappy relationship and moved on. Occasionally he still pops into my head but I brush him away the moment he pops out. I told Ivan dearie, maybe it's not bcos I'm missing the person, I'm missing the life I used to have. The routine. I enjoyed going to the gym but bcos he's no longer ard, I have no one to go with me. I felt the sense of lost. But when I went with frens who gyms too, I will not feel tat sense of emptiness?

Having a partner is to have a companion. That's why usually ppl go for those with similar interest so they can do stuff tgt. Enjoying the company and making wat u enjoy doing even more enjoyable. That's why one feels happier when doing the same thing wif their partner than wif others. Since he dunno how to treasure what we used to have, I dont see the point of still holding on. Thanks for introducing me to gym and diving. I love them to bits, esp diving...

Back to my trip back, here's some of the pics :) Din really take much cos I had 3 pimples on my face!! UGLY!!

Ivan Dearie with his mini curry chicken. LOL~ Kanna chop!! RM8 for this!!!

See the diff between my mini pot fish soup and his curry chicken??

Ivan ask me to buy this for Keith Kor. My first reaction was 贱人! LOL~ Den he says, "Why you so bad... I meant 宅男..." hahahaha... like REAL!

J.POPs baby donuts!! They taste gooooood!!!

My happy driver for the trip :D See he so happy!! Cos I talk lots of craps to make him laugh! hahaha!!!

Brought my 小妖怪 back. Hugging him all the way to n fro :)

I was craving for jap food so we went for sushi high tea at BP Mall :D

These 2 little rascals can really eat lo! Esp the elder sis!! Ate more than I do!!!

I love my Ohana. They never fail to cheer me up at my lowest and be there when I needed them. Love them all!! HUGZ!