It's raining and raining none stop. Such a stupid weather making me all emo again n miss him even more. I miss my Baobei, not the current him (Mr Ex). No point in smsing Mr Ex to say "I miss u" cos he's not my Baobei, the one I'm missing. Sigh...
Almost everyone tells me I deserves someone better. Only 2 told me to give him some time. He's juz feeling lost now. I know who is the best for me and if he's not here, I cant be possibly settle for a 2nd best. It will not be fair to the person as I cant give him my heart. Someone once told me, to maintain a rs, the guy has to love the girl whole heartedly but the she may not need to love the guy, she juz need to understand him. I don't agree. Love has to be mutual. Otherwise the party always loving will suffer. Will this still be a blissful picture to look at? That's why I dont see the point in asking him to stay anymore. It's not going to be blissful anyway. Though I'm not any happier this way now, at least, I let him be happier. Someone is better off rather than both suffer together.
Very very long ago, I read this and I truly believe,
"If you really love the person,
Set him/her free.
If he/she comes back,
Then he/she is yours.
If not,
then Love was not meant to be."
If he comes back, I know we can walk a long long way together n find happiness together. If not, then we were juz there to help each other learn n grow in this life journey. Juz a chapter in each others' life. Despite saying all these, I will still not opening up for rs. As much as I hate being alone, I hate to go thr another heartache. I dont want to take the risk.
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