No more Downtime

Gym last night was great. The awkwardness is lesser n I dun feel the tension bw us. As I posted yest, to me, he's no longer the man I love. He's juz a fren. The man tat I love is from the past. Not the HIM now. Somehow having this 'differentiation' I made myself happier. Yes, I'm still sad abt the fact that the man I love most is gone but he forever lives in my heart. I managed to self therapy and make myself feeling happy everyday. It cant be compared to the wonderful times I have had wif him, at least, I'm no longer emo n teary.

Well, Mr Ex kept his promise to remind as frens. I went over to his place at CCK to change before heading to CCK gym. I was greeted with a glass of soya milk when I came out from the toilet. After gym we din have dnr as he's meeting a fren to go run n I have to head home. We went back to his place to get my stuff n he poured me a glass of milk. When I got home n showered, a sms came in. It was from him to ask whether have I reached home. He was the person I least expected to receive a sms from. I told Kor abt all these, he said I 暗爽 right? I told him, "No, I don't. In fact I dun feel anything." I really din feel anything. He pass the drinks to me I juz drink. He sms den I juz reply. Have I lost the love I have had for him? Well, the love I had is still there but not for the current him. The current him, I feel nothing. 我们只是朋友.

To that someone, I know he dun read my blog but I really dunno how to tell this to him, please dun do anything more for me. I cannot accept. Thank you for your care n concern but I really 担当不起. U'll find someone who will accept n gladly return ur love. That girl is not me. I cannot love another. I no longer have a heart. So I have no heart to give anyone or to have anyone in my heart. I can only say, "I really appreciate what you have done for me but I'm not the one for you."