If I were a boy...

My frens used to say tat if I'm born a guy, I wld be the 现代韦小宝. Being sensitive, romantic, gentle... Everything most girls wanted in their guy? LOL~

Keith Kor came back from Thailand but he left his heart there. haha.. With a Thai little girl who is 10 yrs his junior. She looks really sweet, gentle and innocent in the pics :) I like her immediately I saw her (although juz her pics). So I gave Kor the crazy idea of sending the pics to her. It's not juz sending the pic alone, I asked him to buy a nice little frame and send it over with the photo. How sweet isn't it? So he asked for her address from her cousin, Aiko. She was kinda anxious as she smses Aiko TWICE and called her countless times to make sure Aiko got the address. So silly tat makes me like her even more. Of cos, my stupid Kor hear liao there "暗爽"...

The address looks a bit alien to us and we wonders will the parcel reach her safe n sound. So I suggested getting her a card to "test water". Also, she'd be expecting something from him. After she receives the card, never will she expect she'll be receiving the parcel following it! Girls love surprises dun we? Bcos of my idea, I hav to accom Kor to get the card during lunch yest. He dunno wat to get. He dun wan to 'scare' her off by sending something too .... He wanted something more neutral. So I suggested sending her a Thank You card. To thank her for the hospitality while he was at Thailand. I think it's brilliant. Hee =D Baobei was there with us too. He asked why sending her a card? Is it her bday? We told him no. I told him, no need for a reason to give someone a card! He's such a blockhead! Even if it's bday I will oso not get a card from this silly blockhead lah. (Still feeling 'unbalanced' over Vday issue...)

I dunno why we were on this topic again last nite when Baobei sent me home. I only rem he mentioned something abt if it was him, he wld juz send a photo over. I told him tat was the initial plan! To send the photo over tgt with a nice, beautiful frame. He said that for him, he would juz send the photo over. Maybe with some words behind... =.=" See? This is my blockhead baby. So I told him, "Need to put in more effort de lah! Frame it up with a nice nice frame and send it over! The one receiving will be so happy lo! That's call 有心! Also, you dun need an occasion to give presents or cards. Little surprises like these are so sweet!"

"I know lah. You are hinting me rite?" he chuckled.

"No, I'm not..." (这是明示,不是暗示! 你这个笨蛋!)

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I finally bought my Longchamp bag!!! After contemplating for sooooo long!! Hee =D AT gave me a $20 dicount voucher for the bag. So I went ahead to get it! No more procrastinating! Yes, I'm super broke now... But I'm a happy broker! hahahah...

In the end, I bought this.... Baobei chose it for me cos i'm too indecisive on the colours!!

I wish for you to be happy...

A chain of unhappy events happened lately and I think I'm the cause of it all? Cos I mind too much abt the past and emo over silly things... but in a way, I got to know more things which is really sweet....

The recently incident involved a f*cking bear (which is on my most hated list). He bought it for his ex yrs ago when they were tgt. I told him I feel uneasy seeing the bear and I dun like it. So he kept it somewhere. But still, I dun like the idea tat he still keeps it! So I wanted him to get rid of it. Den his way of getting rid of it was to keep it somewhere out of my sight. But he suay suay kanna seen by me when I was looking for a box to store my stuff. I juz felt like tearing it apart into a million pieces. But I din. I asked him why. He told me that he seems to hav a special affiliation with it. It's like a fren to him. A fren which doesn't speak. But how to expect me to accept that? When I clearly knows what kind of history tat piece of junk has and the kind of memories he shared with her n tat trash. Of cos I was really furious and upset. He even wanted me to be understanding towards him keeping the damn thing. No way I can accept it. I swear I will tear it apart n burn it. He threw it away unwillingly. So unwillingly. It juz made me even furious. The anger I had was difficult to control. It's so difficult for him to part with it, so will it be easier for him to part with me den? It's silly to compare myself with a god damn f*cking non-living thing. But how humiliating it is to feel less treasured than it? So I went into disappearing act for a day. I suspended my FB account and went into hiding. Ignoring his calls n smses. It was to make him feel the hurt. So which is more unbearable? But am I any better off when I clearly know I still love him and want to be wif him more than anything else. So I played a little 'game' with him. I told him if he can appear before me by a stated time, I'll give him another chance.

He was late. But I waited. I know he'll appear. He did. 15 min late.

After some arguments, blah blah blah.... we kissed and make up. He told me something which really touches me.

"Next time when you get angry with me, can you think of why you fall in love with me in the first place? Cos I do that everytime."

Everytime he got angry with me, it would be for the split second. He'll always gets gentle cos he thut of why he loves me in the first place? And got he all softened....

This morning I reactivated my FB and saw his posting,

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish now.."

I asked him wat he would wish for. He said,

"wish for my bao bei to be happy with me!"

It's really sweet. It melts my heart. I'm such a silly girl.....

Mini Surprise :)

I have learnt to appreciate the little things he has done for me n not upset over the things he did not do.

I would get upset when I wished that he could do certain things for me but he didn't. I secretly wish for it but it never happened. Den I get upset. Kinda dumb. Cos if I wish silently, he'll never know what I want. Though he can read my mind most of the time. But not every time n everything!

He's not the kind who will plan little surprise on special occasions like Valentine's Day, Christmas, etc... So instead of feeling upset n emo over the fact that he did nothing, I took the initiative n gave him a little lunch surprise. Took him to 大长今 for Korean food during lunch today :) Glad that he loves the food there :D

So coincidentally, the waiter gave us a little private room. So I told Baobei I specially book a room for him. Hahaha~

Even the cups got the restaurant name. Since we were in a private room, no need to feel paiseh when camwhoring. heehee =D

Even the little plates have the name....

The sides.... They are refillable. It used to have more last time but now is so much lesser :( Baobei loves the mash potatoes and asked for 2nd serving!

I ordered the spicy beef soup set. Baobei commented saying the soup is very nice. Got the sweetness of the beef and the beef is very tender. Thumbs up!!

Baobei's bibimbab (is it spelt this way?) I wanted to order this too de. But I let him have it and ordered the soup. Lucky the soup is nice. Hahaha!! This is not bad too!! yummy!! heehee...

After dinner they served us plum juice drink. It doesn't taste like the normal plum drink. It taste really great after a heavy meal. Make me feel less bloated :P But my belt still feels tight after lunch!!! Hahaha!

Of cos must take one nice nice pic with my Baobei!!! It has really been a lovely 6 months together. I'm blessed to have him in my life and I am thankful for that :)

I Love You!

HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!

Time flies. It has been 6 months since the day he asked me to be his gf. It was on bus 65. So-not-romantic =.= I believe all my readers already know my blockhead dumb dumb bf is an unromantic 笨蛋. Like every other couple, we have our share of quarrels and lovey-dovey moments. After every quarrel, we wld not remember what we quarrel abt after we kiss n make up.

This 笨蛋 reads my mind most of the time. His hugs are so warm and comfortable tat I din wanna break free from his arms. His kisses are so addictive, I have to force myself to pull away otherwise we'll never stop. These 6 months spent wif him was truly wonder and heavenly. Of cos nothing is perfect but he's my beautiful imperfection. I grumble n whine abt the things I wished he could hav done for me. But I still love him the same. Sometimes he makes me angry but I always forgive this silly baby of mine. He gets angry wif me too but he will cool off very fast. He cnt bear to be angry wif me for too long :P

He always tell me that everything happens for a reason and everything is a beautiful setup. Although you feel tat heaven is being unfair for making u go thr this shit now but actually it's the beginning of something beautiful.

I love my ben dan, darling, precious, silly, baobei, baby dear! Happy 6th month n more to come :D

No Motivation = No Energy

I need motivation. I pull me through each working day and get my work done. Which I have not been doing so for quite awhile. The volcano is going to explode anything (soon).

Was scheduled for a 2nd interview yesterday but I have to conduct an external briefing so I informed the organisation I was unable to go for the interview. I thut they will reschedule a day for me but since last Tue they called me until now, no news. The worst part, something stupid cock up for the external briefing. It was suppose to be Malay session yest. I am suppose to do the Mandarin session which is today. Koaz. If bcos of this idiotic messed up n I lose my opportunity of gng for the 2nd interview, really bo hua lo. I try to be responsible but looks like it's not being rewarded :( Need to slack n do nothing den Lady Luck will follow me? Bleah.

I'm still being hopeful they will call me up for the interview. However the wait can be rather torturing :(

Kinda getting to love this new blogskin. Or u can say I lazy! Hahaha.... Well, it doesn't look tat bad isn't it? Hee =D

Baobei's having high fever since yest :( Suppose to got gym tgt yest but end up I went myself. Rented Hangover wanna watch tgt at his pl but halfway thr the DVD player spoilt! Today arranged to go SDC to watch Clash of the Titans (3D) but poor baobei still having fever so cancelled and brought him to see doc. He's still burning hot :( Really hope he can recover real soon...

5th Year Anniversary

Today marks my 5th year anniversary working here. It's oso April Fool's Day. Wat a joke. A lot of things are running through my mind now. Where shall I start? Pls pardon me if this post gets too random for my readers to catch....

My first diving experience was really wonderful! It's really difficult to describe the kind of underwater feeling. You see on National Geographic all those schools of fishes, corals, etc, now it's happening all ard me. How amazing! One will not be able to understand it if you are not a diver. Photos/videos will not be able to truly capture the kind of experience. How those fishes swam ard u. Getting so close to them n being 17.3m underwater. Beautiful. Really beautiful. I love diving is not bcos of him. So stop saying I dive bcos he loves diving.

It was really disappointing and upsetting tat we were unable to dive tgt at Aur. Your cylinder 'o' ring burst n had to surface. We din get to dive hand-in-hand. In fact, disappointment is an understatement. Dun tell me it's not advisable to hold hands while diving. If I can hold my buddy's hand thr'out the dive, why cant u hold mine? (I held on to my buddy cos he kept floating up... I need to prevent him from floating away...) If u can hold her hand to dive, why not mine?

Many times I tried to tell u abt how I feel toward certain stuff but u always understand it different from mine. I feel tat it's redundant to say it cos u'll not get the real meaning n understand. Men n women juz think differently. If u cant comprehend, juz accept. Certain articles I show u is to hint to u how i feel n tat how i felt but u read it juz w/o a thut. U ask me to talk to u but if u cnt understand it onli makes me feel more frustrated. I need you to be more proactive. But u remain passive. Act onli upon being told. Wat's the point? Does it mean anything if the action was done upon request? To me, it doesn't mean anything. In fact, it's on a negative scale.