Le Pliage

Was randomly browsing online sometime back den came across this Longchamp bag. Kinda tempted into buying it but curbed my urge. It's a WANT not a NEED... I'm trying to keep my credit card bill under $500 each month. Every month I'm exceeding my budget. I'm a poor man now :(

Then today, I saw on the webby can customise ur own Le Pliage... hmmm.... $165... If it was last time, I no need to ponder so long to get a bag at this price. But I'm pretty tight after financing the car which I dun get priority to use and I hardly use....

Din really enjoy my weekend. Was easily frustrated and irritated. Went to update my bank book today. It makes me upset. haiz. It used to make me smile cos of the increasing number. But ever since I moved back home, it's constantly dropping. From it was a more than 100% drop in my savings. So much for being a good daughter. I agreed to increase the monthly allowance given to my parents cos they say I moved back le, household expenses will increase. When I hardly eat at home and how much will the PUB bill increase after I move back? I dun wan to be calculative with my own parents. So I juz agreed. My dad had retired and he still needs to finance the car. Which is very straining for him. So I asked him to change to a smaller car. Now I'm financing the car loan. Which puts the strain on me. Topping up the fuel to full tank everytime I use it, n topping up the cashcard. On average, I use once or twice. Which depends on availability of the car. I dun get the priority to use it even though I'm the one paying for it.

My brother earning much more than I do, is only contributing 40% of what I am giving. Yes, he dun stay here but does it mean tat he can give only 40%?

Feel like juz stop being so nice. It doesn't pay to be nice. Onli make myself suffer. Pissed.

Work sux too. I completely give up. I feel so not being appreciated and I totally bo chap now. I dun try to hit target, I slack everyday. Come late n leave on the dot. Gone are the days I will stay back till 9pm to clear my work. For wat fu*k? As if the boss will be appreciative and reward me for my hardwork. Pissed again.

I juz wan to break free from all these. Pack n go far away from all these shit.

I've come to 2 conclusions:

1) Faster find a new job

2) Treat 70% of the allowance give to them as room+car rental and 30% as REAL allowance to them.

I dun wan to continue waking up everyday feeling frustrated. Feeling like as though the whole world owes me. The feeling truly sux!