都是我的错

"Ya.. Same old trick of hanging up on me and switching off your phone.. If you even have an ounce of respect for me, you wont do that.. Do i shout at you? Do i hang up on you? Do i even switch off my phone and leave you hearing my voicemail msg?"

"And dont say you are understanding when you are feeling upset over it.. That's not considered being understanding.. You're just merely hiding your displeasure.."

These were the 2 msges I received the moment I on my phone. Not understanding. Showing no respect. I dun care abt how u feel. Everything is my fault. You said the 2 things which attracted u to me most is my understanding n caring. Now I am neither understanding nor caring. Looks like there's nothing attractive abt me anymore. Looks like we've reached the end...

"It's always abt you."
"Everything I do juz seems not enuff."
"I dun see why you need to be upset over such small issue."

Seems so familiar to me. Heard it over n over again. Hearing it once may be a misunderstanding. Hearing twice maybe coincidence? Hearing it so many times. Ya it's true. Tat's me. Not understanding. Always finding fault. Never contented. Juz tink abt my own feelings. I'm such a sucky person. Lousy gf. I dun deserve to be pampered by anyone. I shld juz be alone n not waste anyone's time n mess up ppl's life.

不是任何人的错。一切都是自己错。

一切都是美好的安排？让我看清了自己。原来，我都没变。还是一样的差劲。

I merely wan to see u cos I miss u. Hoping to see u n felt disappointed is my fault. It became such a big issue juz bcos I wanted to be wif u...

Everyday I look forward to lunchtime. So I can be wif you. I look forward to off work cos I can be wif u. I look forward to weekends cos I can stick to you. I guess I'm being over possessive. Feeling lost w/o u by my side is my fault. I shldn't have love u so much n wanting to be wif u all e time.

千错万错，最终还是自己错了。