It's Thur.. I was so stressed up at work that I broke down n cried this morning. I juz gave myself too much stress. Last nite was disastrous. Dun wanna mention abt it. But I'm totally disappointed wif myself to get in tat state last nite :( anyway, everything's fine now. Juz do wat I cn and not hav such high expectation for myself. But I would love to hav a change in my job. Getting kinda sick n tired of wat I'm doing now.... Need new excitement to jazz my working life up a bit.

Deardear always says I'm fortunate de. I certainly dun deny this fact. I have my wonderful Ohana, fantastic frens who r always there for me n of cos, my loving deardear. Sorry abt freaking u out on my unusual behavior this week. I'm not usu like this la. I'm definate much stronger than this. Juz tat this week has been pretty down n emo for me. I dwell on unnecessary stuff too much n made myself so miserable. Tomorrow will be a better day :D I'm already feeling much better today after talking to my mummy dearest this morning. Silly ger made everyone worried abt her again. So sorry :( *pull ears* Will not let it happen again k? I'm e sunshine ger mah. Why let him take away e sunshine in me when he left?? I din realised e impact he had on me since e day he left. I din realise the effect cn be so great even after I got over him. Something I certainly need to find n regain back.

Received this from my Ivan Dearie yest :D Din know it had double impact on me. I told him if I fin all these by myself, I will need to go on mc for another week!!! Anyway why double impact? First, I was all smile when I received it yest. Felt so loved :) Second impact? Cos I had a super lousy, stressed up day at work. I was away for 3 days due to MC den got tons to clear plus e toopid case which I need to redo e report, making me super tensed up n felt like burning everything away :( I came home, still feeling depressed over my own 'incompetency', I saw e giant pocky n I smiled. No matter how sucky life has been, I still have my beloved Ohana here for me :D Well, not all e credits goes to e pocky, juz tat it's e 'final blow' to cheer me up :D

Though work sux but I'm well loved by my ohana n deardear. Deardear came to fetch me from work today cos I'm still not fully recovered. He gave me my daily dosage of hugging therapy, listen to my grumbles, telling me everything will be fine. It's comforting to be in his arms n knowing he'll be there for me :)

Sms from Princess Qi oso played a part. Knowing someone cares, is realli heart warming :P

Came home den realised I haven eaten e whole day!! Faint~ Din tell mum i coming home for dnr too... Mummy cooked ai xin mee sua for me to eat. Though I din hav much appetite, I fin everything, actualli onli a small bowl la. I told her I dun realli feel hungry....

Took a long long shower n tried to cool myself. Ate e mee sua, ate e pocky, feeling much better now.

Prince ZY made me laugh wif his glutton act. He 'snatched' e pocky from my mum n ate until his hands n mouth all covered with e strawberry cream. How cute!! kekeke... He's not suppose to eat anything else except milk now lo... When we took it away from him, he cried!!! It's kinda 'cruel' la, but he's so damn cute lo. I cant help but laughed. Now I understand why returning to a happy home can wash all e unhappiness at work away. I'm soooo glad to have wat I have today.

kind of random today... been using too much brain cells in office.... anyway, e main point is there la... will be blogging lesser lately cos hav some catching up to do at work... haiz....

Deardear is sweet de. He came to keep me company on Thu n Fri after work. 3 days of MCs. Really scary. Took me 3 days to recover 80%. I'm still 20% sick :( Been guai guai staying at home to rest these 3 days. I was so bored at home that I did very bimbotic stuff. hahaha... I did a full body scrub, followed by face n eye mask, lastly I filed n polished my nails. I slowly apply moisturiser on my hands n legs. OMG!! All these r soooo bimbotic!! I'm simply too bored at home la.... Finally get to step out of the house for some fresh air today to hav dnr wif deardear. I was quiet thr'out dnr cos I still dun feel too well. Deardear was understanding and send me home after dnr. He knows I'm tired n need to rest le :) Thanks Deardear for taking care of me :) Hugz!

Sick again on a Wed... Sian... Was running a fever of 38.4C. Everyone was out when I woke up this morning. Left my SIL n baby ZY at home. I cnt possibly ask my SIL to accom me go see doc cos she needs to look after e baby. Feeling awful whole morning, sorethroat, blocked nose n ears, headache + probing headache, whole body aching... I feel like dying :(

Keith Kor was so sweet to offered to come and accom me go see doc during his lunchtime. But it's not as though my hse is very near office... I din wan to get him into trouble as I dunno how long is the waiting time gng to be. I'm touched and I realli appreciate it. It's the thut that counts rite? Thanks Kor :)

Deardear offered to brg me lunch cos nothing for me to eat at home. I told him need not hav to come. I din wan him to rush here during his lunch time. But I was a tad emo when he wasn't able to brg me so see doc. I am such a silly ger :( 女人都是口是心非。虽然我叫他别来，可是我其实是很想见到他的。生病时的我，比平时还要软弱 :( but I choose to be e nice gf ask him not to come n not be a spoilt brat die die wan him to come when he's so busy at work. I noe Ivan dearie is gng to say I nv learn again. Cnt be so nice to a guy de. But wat to do? haiz...

As I've expected, someone commented on my chinese post for incorrect word used... hahaha... It shld be '印象' not '影像'. I know lah, juz tat I din check :P

A new bubble tea shop just opened near my office. Due to the rainy weather, I was craving for a cup of hot soya bean milk. Just so happened that I walked passed this new shop and saw their big signage saying "Soya Bean available!" I smiled to myself thinking it's my lucky day! To top it off, they are selling my favourite waffles!! (Those that are normally found at the traditional bakeries...) Happily I ordered my soya milk and plain waffle. I was a bit disappointed with their service as they weren't wearing a welcoming smile and they are so inexperienced in the way they pack the drinks and make the waffles. I have to wait quite awhile for my orders :(

My 'a little bit of disappointment' grew to 'very disappointed' when I tasted the waffle and soya milk. I only took 2 slips and I decided to forgo the drink. It taste weird and the soya milk is semi solidified to soya bean curd! Up till this stage, I wasn't harbouring any positive hopes towards the waffle. Just as I expected, the waffle is too thick and taste 'floury' :( :(

The lousy first impression of the shop wasn't the main point of this entry. It just serves as an introduction to what I'm going to write about :P With reference to my entry yesterday on writing in standard English, I came across this blog while eating the awful waffle.

Check this out!! ->> Your English is Your Face to the World. How Do You Look?

It's quite interesting, do take some time to read it :) The main message they are trying to bring across is about the same as what I have had written, but in a more professional way.

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While writing this entry, an ex-colleague called and brightened my gloomy Monday :D It's his first day of work at MOM. He called me at my office number and looked for the girl in pretty dress *blush* I stunned for awhile wondering who is it and why this person would know I'm in my new dress?? He's the nice chap who always noticed my new dresses. Most of the time, I got compliments from him. Only once he comment that that dress makes me looks fat. Now I think twice about wearing that dress. Haha. Thanks Yus, for making me smile today :)

Granted my Deardear author rights to my blog cos he's the one always complaining abt my grammatical errors -.- I though of changing my blog address cos now is not just me, I have him with me. But I think it would too much of a hassle as many of my readers have saved my blog address under favourites?? LOL~ I'll just leave it, in case you peeps cnt find me... kekeke...

I'm typing to blog in proper English. It's like writing management paper to my Director. I have to check my grammar, spelling errors, sentance structure... At least it's a good practice? Next time it would just flow naturally and will be less tedious. For now, I will just have to bear with it. If you noticed, my entries are getting shorter... So I'll have lesser to check... hahaha...

有人又在念我的 Grammar & spelling mistakes。应该是 “Curiosity killed the cat” 而不是 “Curiosity kills the cat.” 他还说要写网上日记，就要以标准英文抒写。免得误人子弟，给他人错误的讯息，以为那样是正确的。我原本不是太在意文字或句子的准确性。只要我的读者能了解我想表达以及传达的讯息就以足够了。现在想想， 他说的也并非没道理。如果我们不注意我们的用词与字句，有时候，我们会把这‘坏习惯’带入办公室。在公司里，我们很多时候会需要以公函或电邮与他人交流。要是我们的信件写得错误百出，收件人又会对我们留下什么样的影像呢？

新加坡是个多元种族的国家，我们时常‘难免’会在言语或书信中会出现‘ROJAK’的现象。就连大学生也不能很好地掌握从小就开始学习的双语。我，就是个活生生的例子。难怪我们政府每年需要花钱推广讲标准华语/英语运动。

为了避免‘他’又来挑我的病句，我特地以华文书写。可是，我有种预感，又会有其他人来‘砸馆’，毕竟我的华文也并非好到哪里去。

Curiosity kills the cat. Although I fulfilled my curiosity but it affected my mood. Certain things are better left unknown than to find out and now I cannot get over it. I know I will get affected when I took the step to find out, but I cannot suppress the curiosity urge to know more. I was actually debating internally whether should I or should I not. Now I am feeling guilty over taking that step and it is like intruding into other people's privacy. It's so unethical :( I guess I need to go for confession tomorrow. I am a bad girl today :(

Thanks for coming into my life.

Thanks for showering me with your TLC.

Thanks for accepting me as who I am.

Thanks for everything, my darling baby.

I'm a blessed girl, cos I have you.

It's midweek... coming to an end at work. Feeling super lethergic at work :( no mood, no strength, juz wanna sit there n waste my time away.

Is it my movie withdrawal syndrome or I'm missing my dearies too much?? It's been some time since I last meet up with them. Abt a mth I haven seen them le. sigh.

Ivan dearie!! where's our monthly affair to go back n see grandpa?? I miss e prata trip, laughing non stop in e car....

I miss them. Everyone of them!

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No, he's not my bf. Juz e guy I'm dating lately. Enjoy his company, feel comfortable wif him but we made an agreement to give each other more time to know each other better and be sure tat we r meant to be together. We both wan our next r/s to last. It's in a very ambiguous stage we r in now. Tat's wat they call open r/s? We r certainly more than juz frens but we r not couple yet. It's complicated. haha. I appreciate his efforts in introducing me to his frens, I'm oso glad tat he agreed to join my family for prawning on Sat. As being together as a couple is not juz abt e 2 of us. It'll affect those ard us, our families n frens. I can say he's realli a cautious guy, he'll not take a plunge unless he's realli sure e person is meant to be wif. Whatever this might lead us to, I dun wish to tink so much le. I was waiting for him to make e move n ask e 'golden qn' to make us officially tgt as a couple. But now, can say tat I'm taking things easy n let it be. I used to be there so gan jiong n he taking his own sweet time. I believe my readers all know tat I dun like to get tarik like a kite. When it comes to r/s, I'm not a very patient person as I dun like uncertainty. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Yes, I will give him time, like JW, but I cnt guarantee e strong feeling I'm having now will not fade. I do admit I like him more than any of e guys I've dated but tat doesn't mean I'll sit ard n wait. I'm not looking for a fling. I wan something real, something serious n someone to last a lifetime wif. I'm tired of all these courting mind games. It's realli tiring. I've been in this field for so long,n no. of guys I've dated b4, I'm realli seriously very very tired le. Tat's y i wan my next to last. To settle down.