Does love has an expiry date?

Someone told me that I need to pay more attention to my grammar and vocab. Hence, I have edited my post...


Last night, I went watch this Thai movie, Ploy. It wasn't a fantastic movie, however there's one particular scene which I think is quite meaningful. In the scene the husband n wife were quarrelling...

Wife: Do you still love me?

Husband: Of cos I do.

Wife: Den why dun I feel tat u still love me?

Husband: If I dun love u, I wldn't have married you.

Wife: Tat was in e past.

Husband: If I dun love u, I wldn't hav stayed married wif u for 8 yrs!

Wife: It's 7.

Husband: ....

Wife: We dun spend time together anymore.

Husband: We see each other everyday n every night.

Wife: No, I mean realli spending time together. You dun bring me to the restaurant anymore.

Husband: We own a restaurant. Why do we want to go to other ppl's restaurant?

Wife: You can oso bring me to a movie. You dun say you love me anymore.

Husband: We have been married for 8 yrs! You wan me to say I love you everyday for 8 yrs?

Wife: It's 7. If you realli do love me, you will. I need to feel tat you still love me.

Husband: Ok, if tat's wat u wanted... I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.......

Wife: (feeling annoyed, she gave up n walked away.)


How many times we actually overlooked to tell our loved ones we love them? Yes, maybe deep in our heart we really do but the hectic lifestyle made us 'overlooked' the little things in life. Showing them you care and how much you love and treasure them. No matter how much in love you were with each other in the beginning, if you do not put in effort to maintain, it will slowly fade away as well. Nothing stays the same forever. It's an Art to cultivate and maintain a long lasting r/s. Some ppl spend their whole life searching for an answer, for a solution, for a 'fool proof' strategy and found nothing. Love has no fixed formula. Start saying 'I Love You' to the ones u love :) Make them feel ur love today :)

Love does not have an expiry date like canned food. No dates were printed cos it cld last u a lifetime if u know how to preserve it well. Love is also not like instant noodle, it's not something quick & fast & u eat for the sake of filling ur stomach. Love is ... I dunno yet. I'm still exploring, experimenting, experiencing.

你望着我 对我说了让人感动的话
我眼睛湿了 眼眶红了
我很想相信 你的一言一语
我是感动的

在那刹那间 脑海里浮现了他的身影
他曾经也对我说过了同样的话
对我许下了山盟海誓
却没有陪我走到最后

我害怕 我畏惧 我开始想逃跑
这是虚幻吗 还是一场梦
我不愿去猜 不愿去承受心里的痛
请原谅我 如果我在这时候选择离开

Went Batam last weekend wif my Da Sao. It's was truly relaxing. too bad it's onli for 2D1N :( wish it was longer....

We did a very bimbotic thing b4 gng there. We went to the wrong ferry terminal... Both of us thut was e one at tanah merah BUT it's at harbourfront!!! We din bothered to read e fine prints n happily assumed it's at tanah merah.... lucky my dad left not too long ago, we quickly called my dad n drove us over to harbourfront. Phew... juz in time for e ferry onli.....

I 'forced' my da sao to camwhore wif me on e ferry :P

Upon reaching our hotel room n b4 we mess up e pl.... need to take a few shots to show my readers :) the beds....

e living room....

dining area....

it took us a great deal of bear strength to open e balcony door n get out... wa lau... dunno how long nv oil liao lo....

e lil bridge. i tink it's so cute :)

We signed up to take e hotel bus to go City. but b4 tat, we camwhored :P

The security offered to help us take this pic. but he's so lousy, he din managed to take anything in e first attempt....

I super love this pic cos i look so slim lo!!! kekeke... nice angle too!

Mini model of e hotel. i was pointing at e block we were staying at...

We were late for e bus... end up we had to sit on e temp pull dwn seats which is so unstable...

Camwhoring on e bus... hehehe...

We were both super hungry by e time we reached city. go for some 'good' food.... it's freaking cheap lo.... e meal cos us less than 20 bucks in total!

e mini pizza....

I tink e avocado shake was e best dish....

den we went to e supermarket... we love to go supermarket lo.... not auntie but to see got any interesting foodie not... i told da sao this looks like cockroach flavor.... LOL~

halfway thr our grocery.... all junkies....

Den we saw e super nice swiss rolls... it taste good too!!!

How cn miss out e root beer from A&W there??? it's a MUST lo!

Camwhoring on my on while da sao is 'unloading' milk.... hahaha.... i set timers to take e photos lo....

on my side of e bed.... actualli i took more than these but shy lah... hahaha... cn check out more pics on my facebook but not all r in though...

some foodie we bought at e supermarket to try... e green chili padi is super spicy lo... i was jumping ard e room cos my tongue n mouth were burning!!!

with pretty looking aga aga... din taste as gd as it looks though....

At nite we intended to eat cup noodle n junkies we bought at e supermarket earlier on cos e hotel food was super exp!!! but we succum to e aroma of Surf & Turf BBQ buffet.....

We love e BBQ crabs!!!! they bbq e foodie on e spot!

We got conned by e nice looking deserts :( din taste as good as they looks.... sadded....

We had buffet again in e morning. but this was incl in pur pkge lo... so fat!!! kept eating!!!

Den we camwhore again. actualli we went for e SPA on e first day but i din brg my cam... so went back to take photos.... tat's me at e entrance to e twin room we were in e day b4...

After camwhoring we went suntaning.... see my lobster face??? I bought e glass bottle green tea e at supermarket e day b4. din realised i dun hav a can opener... i opened it using e hotel teaspoonlo... i tink i'm a genius... :P

Polo Raulph was having 50% off at e hotel outlet lo. Uber happi cos i finalli got to buy e polo tee i was aiming for ages! i bought 2 polo tees n a cap at onli S$109. In sg, u cn onli get half e polo tee?? lol....

I juz posted on Mon how we wan to take things slowly but I find myself falling at a scary speed. I feel myself so difficult to pull away from him. I cn miss him so much tat it hurts. I'm very sure it's not an infatuation. It's an amazing feeling which I had nv felt b4. It tastes so sweet n feels so blissful. I believe God had it all planned out for me. I hav to go thr all tat so i'll love n appreciate this man which He had sent to be my guardian angel. In case u guys r guessing... no we r not together YET. When the day the "if" becomes "when", i will definate 'announce' to everyone who cares here :) of cos with his pic too.

He's making me smile this wide :D everyday. Smiling myself to work every morning. He juz make my day more beautiful...

I like wat CY commented on my new entry today... keke.. well... I share e same thuts as him...

"haha saw yr blog, yr friend a bit crazy la, say u fickle minded. for us, who is not so young, cant afford to spend too much time and emotion on a person liao. so the stop-loss point is tighter. so when a person is not shown to be suitable within the timeframe, it is time to move on. haha that is only rational :)"

I dun hav so many 4 yrs to waste on some idiotic jerks!

Writing this post to clarify in case some of my readers were 'confused' by my entries. I dunno la, some ppl realli erm.... well, it's my blog, I get to write how I'm feeling n I'm truthful towards wat I write. Come on, wat's wrong wif tat? Yeah ppl may tink I'm such a fickle minded ger tat kept changing her mind abt e guy I like. But e thing is, I may show initial interest tat doesn't mean tat I hav to cont 'holding on' when e other party is not appreciative. I need to move on rite? duh. Keep ur comments to urself. I dun need. It's tiring for me to explain myself like this every time. Juz in case my readers r realli confused, I was NEVER in a r/s wif JW. Juz out on dates a few times but we were NEVER tgt. I did express interest in him previously but e feeling has died off. Wat's e pt to cont liking a person when he/she dun appreciate n reciprocate?

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Things r getting on pretty well with TT. He's sweet n nice, we met up almost everyday except on Sat cos I went Batam (photos n entry on it after I upload them...). Had a short meeting wif him last nite after I got back :D I'm missing him so much tat I felt emptiness in my heart. opps...

Though we feel towards each other, we still need a bit more time to get to know each other better b4 committing. We dun wanna make any wrong, hasty choice bcos we r so overwhelm by e feelings n attraction.

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Gng to be a busy n long MONDAY for me. haiz... to cover back e work I missed out last Thu n Fri cos I was on course... zzz....

I know it's still at a very early stage. But he's like a God sent. He simply make my day more beautiful n embrace everyday with a wide smile :D

Yest after work I planned to go swimming. He had arranged to go jogging wif his cols but last min he asked whether he cld join me to go swimming. I was over excited and I said yes. Later den I realised, swimming? It means I'll be in swimsuit n no makeup! Oh gosh.... I feel so 'naked'... But I already said yes n I wanted to see him, I still went ahead to meet up wif him. The lucky thing is, he 300+ degree shortsighted. So when he took off his specs, he cnt realli see very clearly lo... Felt kinda relief though... I'm so shy to look at him as he's onli wearing his swimming trunks. erm... *blush* we went for desert at bugis after that den head home as it was already pretty late le. I'm feeling kinda tired after swmming 22 laps too. Sms a bit n chat a bit on e phone b4 we went to slp. He told me tat he likes e feeling of me in his arms during blading tat day. I had e same feeling too. I like e feeling of me in his arms :) we wanna take it slowly to be sure we r meant to be tgt n not plunge into a r/s bcos we enjoy each other's company. Feel n time muz be rite, he said. At least it's a 2-way thing n I'm happie now :)

He gave me morning call again this morning :) today he was on time. calling me at 6.30am. It's realli very sweet of him. It's such a wonderful feeling waking up to his voice. I hav a feeling, today is gonna be a fantastic Wed!! :D

我的爱心早餐!!! hehe... Mr fav made me bfast today!! How nice n sweet of him rite? Well, when u r nice to ppl, ppl will be nice to u back. I nv ask for anything in return when I help ppl. But it's realli heart warming when ppl do appreciate n do sweet little acts like this :) it made me smile this BIG :D while eating. When e morning start out great, everything will be smooth n wonderful e whole day :)


Apart from the bfast which brightened up my day, TT gave me morning call today :) suppose to come at 6.30am but he onli called at 7am which I'm already awake n showered le.. but still I'm happi to hear his voice n taste his sweetness to call me in e morning *blush* little butterfly inside me...

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Last nite finalli got to watch e long ovedued movie - Confession of a Shopaholic. A whole gang of 5 of us, Sally, Ah Dar, Neal, TT & me. U'll noe why Sally poise wif e fan if u had watched e movie :) Had a nice laugh. A very girlie show. Guys might not appreciate it ba. kekeke....


TT & I reached early for the movie. He was wearing specs last nite. I'm like gosh... went all weak. If u noe me long n well enuff, I hav weakness for guys in specs since young. I dunno why lo. It's not a fetish, not so R21, juz tat I find guys in specs r cute n will make me go weak in my knees. Total go ga-ga over specky guys. opps... Wat's more is tat e one wearing specs is my TT. Aww... 有被电到的感觉 *shy* I tink things r going pretty smoothly wif TT n feeling e sweetness in me everyday. Smiling to myself like an idiot everyday, thinking of him. Ok, I tink I'm too toxicated here. Better keep my cool. haha...

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Somehow I feel bad towards JW. Though we were nv tgt. Now I'm like totally over him le. I feel like such a ***** switching target so fast. But e thing is, I tink I hav given him enuff chances in e past 2 mths. If he cnt even sustain my interest for more than 2 mths, i dun tink we r suitable to be together. The most critical part, he dun make me hav butterflies in my stomach. I noe this sounds like a realli jerky excuse, but I tell myself, no way I'm going to let his special guy slip thr my fingers. U dun meet ppl who give u butterflies everyday rite? In my 27 yrs, he's e onli one. For tat, I'm willing to take e risk n make more effort to know him better n let him know me better :) I'm sorry JW. I hav told him tat when it all started. Since he dunno how to treasure his chances, I dun tink he's worth my keep. B*tch slap me if u wan to. I'm so into my Mr Butterfly now.

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I hav reflected over my actions for the past 8 mths. I hav allow myself to let loose for long enuff. No more griefing n crying. I know it's stupid. I thut I'm ok n totalli over it. But I'm not. Drowning myself in alcohol n stuff. I'm oso like so desperately wanna find a companion which clouded my vision. After e hrs of crying last Thu, it clears e cloud. I've been such a sore loser. Juz bcos he found someone else, I wanna find someone FAST to prove to him tat he dun wan I still cn find someone who does, fast. This is so naive n stupid of me. Wat is there to prove? It onli made myself look even more pitiful. As if he's gonna be affected by it. Duh~

When TT says takes things slowly, I'm cool wif it. Cos I tink so too. No pt rushing into things den to realise we r not meant to be tgt n go thr e heartache n stuff again. I'm enjoying e knowing process n not harboring any expectations. I'm glad I cried it all out tat nite n my Sally dear is there to wake me up frm her scoldings. Pls dun blame urself anymore k? I choose not to tell anyone. Thanks for e encouragement to go for it. No hope, no expectation, juz enjoy e process n be happie :) I'm doing tat now.

Went ECP to blade today :) Super long nv blade le. Last time I blade was like yrs ago when I was still in sec sch ba.... today went blading wif TT. *blush. I told him I feel like gng ECP for a jog den he says he might wanna go blade. So I say how abt I date u to go blade together? Since I'm like donkey yrs nv blade le. I was keeping my fingers crossed waiting for his sms reply. It was a yes. Phew. Over e moon :P still feeling rather nervous b4 e date. but it turned out better than I thut :D *beam. (except for e butt ache.. i fell like thrice on e same spot!! gosh... it's swelling now lo... sob sob...)

I'm realli grinning from ear to ear since i got home. it's a gd start. hope things turn out well this time.... this time, i'm dead serious.

Lousy Cupid 1

Lousy Cupid 2

Lousy Cupid 3

the above comic strips r adopted from http://www.bitterstickgirl.com/

I feel like e ger in Lousy Cupid 3. Running away from e cupid... hahaha.... why I say tat, cos I'm so not myself since yest...

This guy, TT, left me a msg in FB on Sun morning after we met on Sat nite. He said tat to save me e trouble of gng thr my fren's list of 300+ frens to look for him, he look for me n add me lo. Den I replied I approved liao. Next time go clubbing cn jio each other. He replied leaving his contact no, ask me to drop him an sms so he'll hav my no too. I smsed him on Mon morning when I saw his msg. We started emailing each other since mon morning.

I dun rem why we started talking abt movies la. den he said he cldn't find anyone to go watch This Movie wif him. I told him tat day I wanna go watch oso den all my cousins refused to watch tat. So he suggested we go watch together lo. And I agreed. Suppose to be something normal like any other guy i went out on movies with but I dunno why I started behaving abnormally! I went thr my closet choosing wat to wear n I even had insomia!!! Yest I was so jittery n nervous tat I LS e whole day lo!!! It had NEVER happened to me before!!! So unlike me to behave this way rite? E crazy thing is, I cnt help but kept smiling to myself like a stupid idiot!!! Gosh!! I dunno wat's wrong wif me!!! I like onli met him on sat. Din realli talk to him much n I'm behaving so strangly!!! Faint!

He came to pick me up at marine parade after my acu appt. He asked me whether I hav shawl or jacket at office. Cos he scared later I cold. How sweet rite? I told him I got shawl. It's ok. End up I din brg my shawl n he brought me a jacket. Cos he says he'll still brg juz in case my shawl not warm enuff. I told him dun wan him to waste e effort, I'll leave my shawl in office lo.

He send me home after tat. Though it was a short evening but it was enjoyable :)

WA lau..... I realli feel so not myself!!! I dunno if it's bcos i like him cos it's like too short a period to be falling for him. Ridiculous!! I simply cnt tahan my own abnormal behoviour n I cnt seems to stop myself frm being so weird. Help!!!

I tink tat I tink too much. He's juz being nice n not tat he's into me. I'm realli scare tat my crazy behaviour will scare him n left him wondering tat tis ger is some weirdo -.-" I still wan to be frens de. boo.

I dun like Jackie Chan movies.. but last nite I went to watch Shinjuku Incident w AN. Well, it's e onli movie avaliable n I haven watched. It turns out tat e movie is still quite ok :) dun hav e usu Jackie Chan fighting scenes which is boring. I love action pack movies but I juz dun like his fighting movies. Hahaha... e movie is so bloody lo. All e gang fights n stuff. Aiyo... There's this part whereby Daniel Wu was disfigured by e botak gang leader. I cn feel my hair stand lo. He took e blade n forcefully cut across his face. I cn feel my hair standing!!! E worst part is, he shove Daniel Wu's hand into e chestnut work. E burning heat is terrible enuff but he din end there, he took up e spade n chop it in. Wat u see next is Daniel Wu pull out his arm wif his hand chopped off at e wrist. Gross... my whole body turn cold lo. Terrible!!

AN change a new bike. I dun like his new bike :( I kept sliding to e front!!! Aiyo... I hav to keep adjusting to shift backwards lo -.-" He said I lost so much wt!! Happi, at least it's worth my money :P I told him u heng not I lost wt liao, at least u dun need to tahan a heavier wt when I slide forward. He said last time i look round n chubby. Ji dan! At least it's back den. haha. Thanks AN, I enjoyed myself last nite. Dun worry abt e new job, u'll find a better one de :)

Wanted to blog abt this cos of a date invitation I received on Sun. He wrote, "Anyway, I am kinda busy today and tom. How about I see you on Tue. Can we call it a date."

I replied, "Tue I got something on. How abt Fri? A date? *blush. means e guy will come pick up e ger w a bouquet of flowers? Keke."

His reply, "Wow that serious huh? Anyway, can I tentative on that."

I wun expect he'll actualli cm pick me up wif a bouquet of flowers. Cos we dun get this kind of romantic guys ard anymore. Nowadays, when a guy dates a ger out, he dun plan, dun make an effort to make e first date an unforgetable experiance to leave a lasting gd impression for e ger. It wld hav been half e battle won if e guy is able to create tat positive lasting impression :)

An example of a 偶像剧 first date. hahaha... The guy wld pick e ger up at her pl. Maybe wif a small bouquet of flowers. Of cos he needs to do his hw wat kind of flowers she likes. Not every ger likes roses hor.

Brg her out for dnr. Need not hav to be an expensive restaurant, but definately not foodcourt!!! Again, find out what she likes to eat beforehand. So e guy cn safely choose wat to eat instead of asking e ger what wld u like to hav? e ger sure says anything la. To be polite, ask her if it's ok if we eat this? If it's her fav, 80-90% she wld agree. Note: Be observant on details, if she's having sorethroat or wat, even if she loves fish n chips dun brg her go eat tat lah!

Brg her to watch a movie. Lots of hw needs to be done cos again e guy needs to know wat kind of movie she likes n does she like to watch movie. If e guy is asking me out den lucky him, cos I'm a movie freak who watch any type of movie (but... last nite i saw a thriller of a malay ghost movie, give me money I oso wun go watch... very scary... sob sob... I cn even scream while watching e thriller....) rem to hav a jacket ready in case she's cold. Though e best is to give her a warm hug but on a first date... e guy wldn't wan to end up kanna slap ba.

After movie, bring her to e beach to take a stroll n chat. (cn skip e movie n go beach if she dun like movies.) Den again not every ger so 诗情画艺 like me. *I know u r rolling ur eyes now...* need to know each other better rite? So need some quite time to communicate. If she dun like e beach, brg her somewhere else to sit n chat. There r plenty of nice pl ard to chill n chat de :)

After that, send her hm. Walk her up to her unit. It wld be so gentleman of e guy to do so cos by tat time wld be pretty late le. If e guy is lucky, he might even get a goodbye kiss on e cheek ;)

Very typical movie plot, however, men dun do tat in real life. It cn realli melt a ger's heart though. Most importantly, be urself. Dun try to be someone u r not. Even if e guy managed to impress e ger, how long cn he try to be someone else? If she likes him for who he is, den she's e ger he is looking for :)

Sadly, wat we see nowadays r plot like this comic here:

Welcome to the real world. There's no such thing as wat was deplicted in e 偶像剧.

It was Mummy's 50th Bday on 30 Mar 09. If I dun tell u she's 50 this yr, u wldn't hav guess it. Like mother like daughter, we look younger than our real age :P

We celebrated her bday at Tung Lok Seafood @ ECP. We had ala carte seafood buffet. The food was not bad n mum loves it :D Hehe.. Our first time there n glad the food was good. She commented tat e food is better than wat we had last yr. We went Swissotel Merchant Court for their crab buffet last yr. It was disappointing :(

Family photo. It has been quite a long time since we last took a family photo. First time with baobei ZY.

Look at the food we ate!!! Those in e first row cn onli order once. The rest is free flow.The shark's fin soup is yummylicous n I esp love e sashimi. They actualli gave us salmon belly!!! Woohoo!!! Slurp!!! The desert were good too. Just tat e ice cream puff haven defrost when we ate it... hmm.....

How cn celebrate bday w/o a cake? We were so super full but how cn miss out on eating e bday cake?? I told da sao to get cheesecake cos it's mummy's fav :)

Being e 2 more sai nei of e 3 kids, we wanna take pic wif mummy n e cake. kekeke....

Happy Bday my dearest mummy :D MUACKZ!

Yest me this busy butterfly fly here, need for speed sia. hahaha.... After work I met Xing for coffee at Suntec. Den tat late king as usu late again -.-" end up i late for my acu appt. When I late for acu, I almost late in meeting MG for movie!! Rush like mad. Din drive out cos meeting JW after tat n he driving. Den drive 2 cars like so duh...

My movie marathon started at 9.50pm at The Cathay wif MG. He's also a movie siao like me, watch any genre of movie n simply love gng to movies :) We used to go movies tgt n even watch foreign films tgt. But after he got married, I din wanna invite unnecessary trouble so I kept my dist. So happened I was craving for movie wif no company, I met him on msn n we arranged the movie marathon :) He was complaining he super long nv watch movie liao lo. hahaha... Ok enuff of my craps, back to e movies.....
I managed to get there on time, sit dwn den e movie start le! Phew! A real GREAT movie!! Must watch, be it at e cinema or at hm watching DVD. This is a real gd show which we hardly get nowadays. Filled wif laughter, anger, heart ranching moments... Definately worth e time to watch it :) Highly reccomanded! Will not reveal e plot as it's a spoiler if my readers wanna go catch it :)

After G.T., MG went downstairs fag 2 cigs, go toilet, den went up again for e next show - Knowing at 12.05am (The Cathay). Well, 80% of e show was still not too bad but e ending is super lame lor. Sigh...


Next - Too Fast Too Furious 4 at 1.55am (PS) with JW. Abandoned MG (Sorrie MG, next time make up to u k?) Fancy cars n pretty babes. Lucky it e 3rd movie. cos no need to tink juz watch. haha... den e xiao didi sitting next to me kept talking... irritating... I was not feeling cold at all for e first 2 movies, came to e 3rd, PS air con stronger, feeling cold lo. Den JW oso v blockhead... He juz ask, u feeling cold arh? If u nt gng to do anything, dun ask. Ben nan ren. tat's is. I finalli gave up. So I downgraded calling him from someone special to juz JW. (Milky - I wake up liao. He's juz not for me.)

Tell u peeps one freaky thing, I'm gng to watch movie AGAIN tonite. Hahaha... wif my Sally dear :) Watching Fanboys. A lame show I noe but juz for laughs lah :D After tat, we're gng dwn to St James *wink. Come join me! Drop me a sms if u r there! Have a great weekend everyone!!

Went back over the weekend to celebrate another Dearie's 21st bday - Princess Sing :) Every princess muz go thr e 'ritual' of combing hair by their Jie on their 21st :)



With my princess

The legendary G4 of Teo family :)

I asken Ivan dearie to help me go buy e tiara for my princess...

He wanna zuo yong you bao... Aren't u envy??

A grp photo after e sumptous buffet dnr :D

1 is never enuff for us...

Nope, we dun stop at 2 too....

Another one... heehee...

One more with the cakes :D

To love is to sabo :D I told them, lucky u peeps were still young when I celebrated my 21st. hehehe....

Then it's open prezzie time :) Jie bought her princess Versace perfume w body lotion.

We had lot of fun n laughter but something unhappy happened towards e end. End up everyone left unhappy :( not trying to pt finger at who's at fault or wat. Juz tat, certain things cn be avoided. Not we dun understand, hav u open up n talk abt it? If u dun say it, wat we cn see frm ur reactions r juz throwing tantrum, gng crazy over something trival. We r always here, u know that. No matters wat happens, ohana stays rem? Fears that u face, or pressure u need to handle, we wun noe if it's not being said. No one is a mind reader. Yes, u said he understands u but wat did u do to him? U pushed him away as well. Asking all of us to F*** off even when we offered to help. If u had not gone out of control screaming n crying, wld we need to raise our voices to talk to u? U asked me wat's e pt of calming dwn? HELLO, tat's a dumb qn. u need to calm dwn to tink. Keep on screaming, shouting n crying will nt help in anyway. I hope u cn tink it thr ur actions n reflect. Not drilling further into self pity. To walk out of e darkness, u need to stand up on ur own. We cn onli give u support. To do it, u need to depend on urself. Tink of wat ppl had done gd to u, nt juz wat wat ppl had done u wrong. I believe u r old enuff to tink n reflect n not escaping to him for refugee.

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He sms me n came to pick me up after work yest.