Wat my fren said is rite. I'm actualli a little woman (小女人). I need a lot of attention n love. But I TRY to portray tat I'm not. Act as though this is ok tat is ok. Actualli I'm not OK! I juz swallow it all n suffer on my own, not wanting e other party to know n feel guilty or upset or worse, tink i'm making a big fuss out of nothing. Being an understanding woman is not easy. Usu will end up being taken for granted. Dun be understanding n show tat u r unhappy abt things, men say u r unreasonable. This is so difficult.

Maybe the best way to stay away from all these heartaches is not to fall for anyone. Everytime after getting hurt I tell myself this but everytime I failed to protect myself. Making e wrong judgement n choose e wrong guy to like again n again.

Or maybe the prob lies with me? Cos it kept repeating itself. Juz like wat Xing said, "If e prob keeps repeating, u tried diff ways to tackle it but everytime end up failing or doing it wrong. Then u'll start to doubt urself. Is it u tat's e cause of e prob? Then you will start to lose ur confidence." I tried to talk him round last time. But now, I'm experiancing it myself n drop into this situation. The feeling sucks. Now, everytime I think of him, I no longer smile like a stupid idiot, but feel e tinge of heartache in my chest. I tink this is over reacting but it certainly did affected me quite a fair bit. Maybe I like him too much. Maybe e hurt tat he inflicted pierced rite onto e previous wounds. Combo heartache. Sigh. Though hurt but I still hoping to see him....