Dear readers, if i din reply ur tag it doesn't mean I din read it or dun care, juz tat I might hav read it much later or dunno wat to reply... I read all my tags!!! Thanks for showin ur concern to my dramatic life :) n reading my whiney posts. Realli appreciate all ur kind concern. Hugz!

Received a sms from him n made me happi on a blue blue Mon. I'm looking forward to Sunday!

Glad tat things r working well at dearies' side too!! Jia you!!! We wan to be blessed. Dun let those who dunno how to appreciate us get in e way n hinder us from finding our xing fu.

Last nite went to watch He's just NOT that into you with Sally n Dar. It's a very girlie movie n it's so damn true abt e guys. As usu, we made silly comments n sound effects. It's a movie tat all girls shld go n watch :) Nice one. U'll nod in agreement :D Sally says, e funniest part is not from e movie, it's frm e comment I made. She laughed out damn loud lo when it's suppose to be a very touching moment......

Anyway, today cnt slack. Got tons of work to clear today. Will be super busy!!!!!

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Saw this on my dearie's blog. So I 'steal' it. kekeke... I wan a bf like tat too. Y things cnt be this simple?

Went jogging on Sat. All e way frm my pl to ECP, Big splash. Cui. REalli cui... I was panting like mad n felt like vomitting. But I forced myself to fin it. I dun wanna give up halfway. Being satisfied wif my accomplishment, I 'forced' Ivan dearies to sin wif me... hahahhaa.... We ate KFC!!!! den today I ate again for lunch!!! hahahaha.... opps... need to go run some more liao... :P

Heard the SA Tours commercial over YES93.3. So I went to their webby to check out their promos... Very tempted to go Europe. Always wanna go there but nv had e chance nor e $$$. So now single le, hav more spare cash as no longer need to save up for house, kids, etc. But den, nobody to go wif me leh :( Anyone interested?? Pay urself hor, dun come cm tag n ask me to pay... hahaha.... I'm not filthy rich.... If I am I wld :D Sure will hav long queue wanting to accom me go. hahaha... when will I ever get to go?? :(

He din sms me e whole of yest. He juz sms me today.

"Hi. How are u? Busy today?"

I din reply. I'm nt a kite. Dun use e tarik methd on me. It doesn't work.

Mum asked me abt him last nite. I told her "没有了.他不见了." She asked me whether will I reply him if he sms me. I told I wun. She says u shld be more understanding mah. But e thing is, I'm not lack of suitors why degrade myself to wait for him n be accomodative when he's not appreciative at all?

Yes, I do miss him.
Yes, my heart missed a beat when I saw his name appearing on e incoming sms.
But, I dun wan to be treated like a fool again. So I choose not to reply him. If he cares enough, he'll send me another. If he does, I wld reply.

I'm not being stubborn, I'm juz protecting myself from further damage.

It's MID WEEK!!! 2 more days to weekend!! Yippee!!! Actualli I'm looking forward to end this week cos my car is coming next week!!! Cant wait sia. kekekeke.... So EXCITED!!!!

Hope everyone has a beautiful week :)

I have been working very diligently this morning. Up till lunch time. I actualli cn be VERY productive n work REAL FAST! LOL~ I'm realli too slack lah.... :P

I din sms him since my last sms yest. I still tink of him. I realli dunno why he's so stressed up. I cn understand tat he's super busy wif his work. He oso fly me aeroplane so many times. I feel tat it's normal tat I'll feel disappointed. If I dun, den I'm nnot interested in him n dun care a damn abt meeting him. I cn be understanding but at least he shld show tat he's appreciative towards my understanding? Instead, he went MIA den tell me he felt pressurized. Wat is this? Duh. I feel tat it's kind of irresponsible for him to juz go missing like tat. Watever it is, I do hope he's feeling less stressed out n happier now.

Changed my blog song to 孤单芭蕾. A pretty old song. This song was playing on my way back from msia. I rem a long time ago, Dar said this song is my 主打歌. Cos I cn recover frm breakups easily. I was less of an emo baby back then. As I got older, I get more emo n more vunerable too. But lucky I still cn rebound back in 1 pcs. Maybe suffer a few wounds in e heart ba. So e next one who comes along, better brg lots of plasters wif him. LOL~ Not easy fixing it ba. It comes wif lots of pressure oso...

Monday seems to pass by so slowly... so sian... no mood to work. Having withdrawal syndrome now. I wanna watch movie!!!! Lucky Dearies r free to meet up for an impromptu movie session :D I'm juz waiting for time to pass at work... More n more cols r on my facebook... sooner or later they'll discover my blog... Better dun bao tor me huh... LOL~

It's amazing how small SG is. Realli feeling the effect of this smallness. Everyone seems to know everyone -.-" Someone told me, in SG, it's a 2 degree thing. I know A, A knows B. Then B might know me... Sally juz told me tat her col noe me frm DF. I was like who is he??? LOL~ Anyway, this is juz one incident.. So wat evil u do, u cant hide. It comes back to u. Ppl u thut u dunno actualli noes wat u did last summer... So better behave. hahaha....

45min more to knock off.... Counting down.....

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He finalli replied. "Hi. Sorry I just feel very pressurized... Dun feel like taking any calls..."

My reply, "Why r u pressurized? I gave u pressure? I'm sorry if I did. Will not do anything to put pressure on u. U just take care."

Wanna tell him I cn share his prob but maybe tat will add on to his pressure? So I din. When I said Will not do anything to put pressure on u I have decided not to contact him again. Even thought of deleting him from my contacts. It may sounds cruel but it's e best way to refrain myself from smsing him. Nowadays who still cn rem e contact no by heart?

真正喜欢一个人, 不就是要他幸福快乐吗? 我只要他开心就好.
我的不开心, 很快就会好了吧.........?

Yo peeps, I'm back frm Msia :) Had a wonderful time wif my dearies. E search for prata mission is truly unforgettable. LOL~ Photos up when I'm more free :P (As usu...)

Special someone went MIA le. Realli dunno wat's gng thr' tat brain of his :( If this persist, tink it'll be sayonara to him le. I dun like to play hide-n-seek. I dun like mind games either. My readers shld noe this very well :) So I pull e my horses b4 I'm too into a guy if he starts playing mind games or goes into hiding. Well, den too bad for him. I'm a very str forward person. You cn juz tell me str if u like me. No need to go big, big round. Tat's too tiring.

Anyway need to go iron my clothes for Mon le... Sigh... It's Mon again.... BLuey.....

Feeling terrible. Down with gastric :( Wat a lousy Friday. And I juz called special someone. He said something cropped up. He cnt meet me at all tonite cos he'll god damn late like 1-2am -.-" Watever. My gastric is killing me already. Shall go get some rest....

Today is Friday 13th! But I hope you will have a wonderful Fri :) Everyone excited abt Vday? Well, I am! Cos I've dated my Dearies and my beloved Grandpa :D Was making my dearies little suprises last nite till late... Now not enough slp... But it's ok. When I see the smile on their faces, everything is worth it :) Got the first batch of smiles today from my cols when I gave them e little surprise :D tml will be even better!!! Hehehehehe.... I made some for special someone too. REALLY PRAYING HARD he'll be able to meet me tonite... I noe he's freaking busy this week... but I hope he cn grant my small little wish.... At least let me hav e chance to pass him e little surprise...... *keeping my fingers crossed*

Special someone juz cfm he cnt meet me tonite. He's working hard to hit his sales target this month. I hav to be understanding n 'give in' loh. Sigh. Why my life is always in waiting. Waiting for things to happened. The feeling of u cant do anything but wait simply sux.

Side tracked. Talking abt waiting triggered me to blog abt this which came to mind. We have seen so much stories abt men leaving their partners after achieving in life. Well consider this scenario,

Man & Woman got married. Man had nothing to start with. Woman being undertanding and loving towards the husband is willing to suffer, TOGETHER. (wat my dearie said, yi qi chi ku de xing fu.) Years went by, lives got better and Man becoming successful. Woman was abt to ripe the fruits of her labor, the Man suddenly realised, the pretty wife he married had turned into an old hag. He forgot the hardships they had been thr together, how much she had suffered for him, supporting him in every way, he happily went off to find someone new. Maybe someone younger. Maybe someone prettier. Watever it might be, Woman was left alone, stranded. How to start again? How to stand up again? Yes, Woman need not hav to depend on Man, but we all need companion. How her goals changed? Her directions changed. Everything juz changed. Woman r made from love. Man r made from lust. This is a general statement, though there r guys who r different. How to pull herself together n live again. It's such cruelty to put someone thr such sufferings. (I'm not being self pity here...) Man, I really wonder where their heart went to? Or he's born with non in e first pl?

I contracted this side track diease from Xing. LOL. Suddenly thut of this irritating married guy who sms me almost everyday. Sickening. I simply del his every sms tat he sent. But he still cont to sms me. Even asked me to MMS him my photo so he cn look at it when he misses me. I was like WTF. I replied him tat's he's crazy. REalli cnt understand. This kind of guys, may they burn in hell. (Oh Lord, pls pardon me.)

Since I'm not meeting someone special tonite, I shall juz stay in office to do some work. Mummy says I'm simply too slack. LOL~

Special someone asked me 3 TIMES to cfm whether I'm free on Vday. Though I wld love to spend it with him, I already arranged to meet up wif my Dearies. They r impt to me. After wat happened last yr, I'm more attached n closer to them. I wan to spend more time with my Grandpa too! They r e ones always there for me n nv give up :) I LOVE them all!

Yest din get to see him nor hear his voice :( I'm starting to miss him again *blush. Keeping my fingers crossed tat I'll get to see him tonite....

I noe after e silly incident it got cooled off a bit but dunno why e feelings flood in again la. Call me 花痴 if u wan, I still like this little blocked head :P

No longer emo today. Juz found out I'm such a silly ger. Become joke of e day sia. 真的很想一头撞墙死了算了. 发现自己真的笨得很可笑. nvm. over le :)

Hoping to receive flowers on Vday :) Not hinting anyone, juz a open wish. Hahaha... Cos I like donkey yrs nv receive flowers on Vday le!!! Come to tink of it. I'm like onli receive it once. Tat was when I was in Uni..... -.-" Sad huh?? Actualli thr'out my 2x yrs, I like seldom receive flowers oso. Dunno why leh. Even my poor didi oso cn afford to buy roses n give his gf on vday lo... *pout.

I know lah, flowers r not practical. But guys, gers love to receive flowers!!! Though they might complain, "Aiya u shldn't have. Buy flowers so expensive!!" But actualli they r happi like dunno wat inside lo. Gers.

Guys, if u wanna cut cost in giving ur gf/wife flowers, buy them from wholeseller or frm e florist at e market. So much cheaper!! U'll be surprised by the variety they hav at e market!!! But u have to wrap them urself lah. Some mkt florist help u to wrap oso de. Come on, practice makes perfect... Next time will be a nicer bouquet. Keke... I'm more than happi to help u if u realli clueless how to wrap them :P

Have a loving , sweet n lo-man-tic Vday Day :D

Wat my fren said is rite. I'm actualli a little woman (小女人). I need a lot of attention n love. But I TRY to portray tat I'm not. Act as though this is ok tat is ok. Actualli I'm not OK! I juz swallow it all n suffer on my own, not wanting e other party to know n feel guilty or upset or worse, tink i'm making a big fuss out of nothing. Being an understanding woman is not easy. Usu will end up being taken for granted. Dun be understanding n show tat u r unhappy abt things, men say u r unreasonable. This is so difficult.

Maybe the best way to stay away from all these heartaches is not to fall for anyone. Everytime after getting hurt I tell myself this but everytime I failed to protect myself. Making e wrong judgement n choose e wrong guy to like again n again.

Or maybe the prob lies with me? Cos it kept repeating itself. Juz like wat Xing said, "If e prob keeps repeating, u tried diff ways to tackle it but everytime end up failing or doing it wrong. Then u'll start to doubt urself. Is it u tat's e cause of e prob? Then you will start to lose ur confidence." I tried to talk him round last time. But now, I'm experiancing it myself n drop into this situation. The feeling sucks. Now, everytime I think of him, I no longer smile like a stupid idiot, but feel e tinge of heartache in my chest. I tink this is over reacting but it certainly did affected me quite a fair bit. Maybe I like him too much. Maybe e hurt tat he inflicted pierced rite onto e previous wounds. Combo heartache. Sigh. Though hurt but I still hoping to see him....

Mood din get better this morning. Mood was still being affected by wat happened last nite :( But being the nice n soft hearted me, I called him to find out how is he and whether has he went to see doc. Sigh. I'm still worried abt him... Hope he gets well soon...

I'm getting more emo nowadays. When he called n said he's not coming le, my tears juz dwell up. But I still hav to say, "u go back n rest then, since u r not feel well." Otherwise wat else cn I say? "I waited for u e whole nite n now u tell me u not meeting?" I'm juz being too nice ba. Realli nothing in e end. He ask whether i'm ok or i wan him to cm dwn. "Wat cn I say?" was my reply. "I cant possibly still wan u to cm when u already said u r feeling sick rite?" He said he wld definately cm if he cld. All these r juz words when u din delivery as promised. He oso said he'll make up to me. How? The damage already been done :( I'm not angry. Juz uber upset, disappointed n my heart hurts...

Dearie said, "coz just seeing him makes u smile. even if it's for a while with no surprise, am i rite?"

YES!

Shit, dearie's words made my tears rolled dwn. ARGH!

Sigh... he realli cant make it to meet me for dnr tonite. So no dnr, no flowers, no present :( but he says he'll cm find me after his meeting. Ard 11+. I told him no matter how late, as long as he's coming, i'll wait. He replied saying he'll definately cm. So I'll juz hav to wait ba.....

I wanna watch this. I know this is so predictable, typical love story kind of movie. After watching the trailer, e guys in there r those idiots we gers oft met. Be it guys from the western or here, MEN are e same. Well, go in n see n nod head in agreement to wat we gers oft exp.

"I'm not ready for a r/s." (But I'm ever ready for sex.)

"I like e way things r now." (I enjoy having sex with u & no strings attached.)

"It's too early to get married now." (I still want to enjoy!)

"I'm married." (I'm looking for a fling.)

I'm not saying there aren't any nice guys ard. But they r gng extinct soon though. Usu endangered species will receive special attention. So nice guys attracts even more attention from e preying eyes. So either way, women still lose out sia.

I'm not looking for a debate here. Juz stating my views. So if u hav anything u wanna rebute, keep it to urself. I'm not interested.

Saw this on facebook....

Guy X is hurt.
Ger Y is sori n din meant to.

Sigh... both oso my fren. Sometimes our actions lead others on n gave them false hopes. We say the other party maybe thinking too much but hav we tink back tat actualli our actions made them tink too much?

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I teased my col tat he scared of his gf... here's our conversation on IM...

K ... i not scared of gf, i only scared of trouble.
K ... =)

ME ... no need to explain
ME ... lol

K ... =(

ME ... hahahahahaha

K ... chek ark... laff at me

ME ... lalalalalalala~

K ... Grr..... hope today u dun get flowers =P

ME ... :(

K ... hahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!

ME ... i very long nv receive flowers le hor

K ... so means u r used to it lor.... nvm even if tonite no have right? =P

ME ... bleah

K ... hee!
K ... no la!
K ... i wish u all the best and hope u have a great time tonite! maybe all the flowers u missed out tonite 1 shot get back!

ME ... haaha
ME ... i wish
ME ... but i tink he wun be buying flowers lo
ME ... :(

K ... ai ye...... so un-lo-man-tic.

ME ... sigh

K ... no flowers den maybe a nice meal and nice present! dun sigh la!

ME ... later all dun hav lo
ME ... sigh

K ... u dun seem to have high hopes... which is good cos anything out of expectations will be a surprise!

I do hope there's surprise la... But then... how many lo-man-tic guys out there leh?

元宵节快乐 :)


“月上柳梢头，人约黄昏后”
民俗专家称元宵节是中国传统的情人节

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　　本报讯（记者 林华奇）今天是农历正月十五元宵节，人们赏花灯、猜灯谜、放烟花、吃汤圆。宁波市非物质文化遗产专家库成员沈志远告诉记者，古代未婚少女平时足不出户，只有元宵夜被破例允许结伴出门赏灯，多情男女在“花市灯如昼”的浪漫夜晚常常擦出爱的火花，造就了无数良缘美眷，因此元宵节又被称为中国传统的“情人节”。

　　元宵习俗由来已久

　　正月十五晚上是农历新年第一个月圆之夜，旧时称上元节，又称为元宵节、元夕或灯节，民间有赏花灯、猜灯谜、放烟花、吃汤圆等丰富的活动和习俗。

　　据民俗专家介绍，隋唐以来，正月十五便有观灯的风俗。《武林旧事·灯品》记载：“以绢灯剪写诗词，时寓讥笑，多画人物，藏头隐语，及旧京诨语，戏弄行人。”当时这种悬在灯上任人猜射的谜语，人们称之为“灯谜”。

　　在宁波，正月十三称为“上灯夜”，民间开始悬挂和测试自家的花灯。到十四夜，民间有“照蛇虫”的习俗，儿童手提纸灯遍照屋角、墙脚、灶下等阴暗处，有的手持小铜锣，边敲打边吆呼：“嗄去，哒去，赶到茅山（鄞南地名）吃草籽！嗄去，哒去，赶到深山吃烂番薯!”这一天，农家还在田头、田塍点火烧野草，干草燃着时犹如条条火龙，故宁波话称之为“谭火龙”。这种习俗和农业生产除虫害相结合，至今仍可在农村看到。

　　正月十五是闹花灯的高潮，直到正月十八晚上结束灯会，称为“落灯夜”。通常，每年元宵夜，甬城上空烟花璀璨，人们吃了猪油汤团，成群结队上街赏灯看烟花，贪玩、爱热闹的小孩尤其喜欢元宵节，提着灯笼欢快地奔跑在街头。

　　中国传统“情人节”

　　元宵节还是中国传统的“情人节”。沈志远告诉记者，元宵是古代百姓喜爱的节日，尤其受妇女的欢迎。在古代，闺秀平日是不许踏出闺门的，只有到了元宵这一晚，可以不分男女一同赏灯玩乐，这正好为青年男女提供了一个交谊的机会。通常，未婚男女借着赏花灯也顺便可以为自己物色对象，恋人之间可留下信物，之后找媒人上门去提亲。

　　“月上柳梢头，人约黄昏后。”在中国文学史上，或悲或喜，记载着无数与元宵节有关的美丽爱情故事。词人辛弃疾也在元宵节写下了“众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处”的千古名句。如果翻一翻《三言二拍》等话本小说，也可以提供多处佐证的；传统戏曲中，陈三和五娘是在元宵节赏花灯时相遇而一见钟情的，乐昌公主与徐德言也是在元宵夜破镜重圆，《春灯谜》中宇文彦和影娘也在元宵定情。

　　沈志远表示，一些人认为农历七月初七是中国“情人节”，其实传统的“七夕”是古代“妇女节”，姑娘们在夜晚穿针引线验巧，做小物品赛巧，摆上瓜果乞巧，男性是没有参与的。元宵节是一个浪漫而充满诗情画意的节日，是古代青年“自由恋爱”的佳期，这才是中国真正的“情人节”。

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Special someone asked me out on Vday. But I already arranged to go back to Grandpa's on this day. Vday is not onli for couples, I feel tat it's for those u care n love for as well :) Then he replied saying any day oso can be Vday. I told him this reminds me of the song 分手快乐 then I realised this song 情人节 is more appropriate :P Enjoy e song and may everyone be enjoying 情人节 everyday n not juz on 14 Feb :)

Since I cnt spend Vday with him. I hope he'll be able to meet up with me today.... since today is 中国传统情人节...

This special someone had me smiling like a stupid idiot everytime I tink of him *blush* Lucky it was dark last nite. Otherwise he wld see my face red like tomato :P

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Today combo swayness :(
First I dropped and broke my moisturiser while applying it.
Then I dropped my belt on my way to work w/o realising it!
3rd, my chair broke when I arrive at work -.-"

Usu it comes in combo of 3s so tink tat's all for today le ba. Then special someone says bad things r always followed by gd things. I hope tat's true. If I get to see him tonite then will be e best thing le :)

Haven fallen sick for so long. Monday went to work feeling tired. Took PM leave go home rest. Then Tue pulled myself out of bed to go work. But my head n throat r killing me so went to see doc. Doc onli gave me 1 day MC :( This morning wake up feeling worse! Whole body aching n feel so cold :( So sms my boss to take urgent leave. Realli feel like dying liao. Whole day juz slp n slp. login once in a while to check office email see got anything urgent not. My brain is so tired tat cnt tink well. Cnt conc oso. ARGH! I wan to get well soon!!! When i'm sick, I tends to get emo again. Sigh. Still waiting for e special someone to cm take care of me.... Now my nose n ears r blocked!

Someone said I've been tinking too much taking a toil on my health. Finalli my body cnt take it n collapse le. Sigh...

Feeling lethargic. Party too much over the weekend. Din get enuff rest to recharge my energy for the week. Still tinking whether I shld take leave on Wed to rest. Last Fri went hm rite after work. Wanted to be gd ger stay at hm cos I gng out on Sat nite. Then... I felt so weird staying at hm on a Fri nite, so I went out at ard 10pm to Boat Quay to meet my frens. Pub hop from Boat Quay to Thai pub den to Dfly. Damn shagged n drank so much tat I puke like nobody biz. Din even shower den I KO on my bed once I reached hm. If onli alcohol cn realli drown sorrows... but after e puking n terrible hangover, at least I felt slightly better. Not so emo.

To you-know-who: Thanks for taking care of me on Fri. I realli appreciate it.