Wanted to upload some pics taken this week. But got some prob uploading them :( will try to do them later :)

Yest AN got to know tat I keep a blog. He asked me for the blog address but I was a bit defensive not to give him e address. Cos I hav written too much abt the incident n entry abt him. Shy lah. I do hav to admit I do feel towards him lah. But my dear readers all noe what's holding me back. Wat held my feelings captive. I dunno wat kind of reaction he'll hav after reading my blog. Then e 'crazy' transition period... Also, if he reads it, then next time I cnt post comments abt him here for my readers wor... shy lah to let him see wat I write abt him....

I do tink of him. Look forward to meet him. I took a step forward then I backed off again. Withdrawing to where I started. He's realli nice. I dun need to be on full alert when I go out wif him cos he dun anyhow 'take adv' of me loh. Some guys I met lately will de. So tiring when gng out wif them still hav to be on guards making sure they dun anyhow ah :( He's been hurt real bad. TWICE. I dun wan to hurt him. I dun wan him to get hurt due to wat happened in e past. My mum asked me whether we r together this morning cos I'm gng out wif him so oft lately. Nope we r not. We both needed time. The feeling is mutual but whether to take e next step is still too early ba.

Another concern is... I scared he'll go 'poof' gone like e other 2; the guy whom I chatted till wee hrs & e guy from office. Both told me I like u but I dun wan commitment. Then 'poof' they r gone. WTH. I'm not some sort of entertainer k? Lucky, my feelings were held captive. Then again, I cn write whatever I wan here, then later, when I see him, every determination to hold back e feelings juz seems like faded.

If u dun understand all of e above, pls ignore. I'm juz random blabbering.