Poster by David R. Stoecklein

3rd day. Still not feeling any happier. Tears juz flow like a running tap last nite. Like a broken tap to be more precise. Fell aslp while tearing. I din cry, I onli teared. M called me last nite to comfort me. He offered to lend me his hand to brg me out of this misery, even if it's juz for this difficult period. He says if I'm willing, I'll juz need to ask. But I dun wan to do that. I dun wan to 'make use' of him to get over my heartache. Though it's realli so nice n sweet of him, I juz cnt be so mean to treat him like a spare tire or worse, a can drk (which Qi describe), throw after drking.

I wan to feel e breeze. The sea breeze. How I love the sea. Someone told me, I love the sea so much cos I'm a teochew. It's in me. Teochew used to live by the sea n mostly r fisherman. Tat's why Kor loves fishing n I love e sea? OUR first date was to ECP. So long ago... so long ago...

Mind not working. Body not working. Drifting everyday. Floating ard like a lost kite.

I cnt recognise myself in e mirror today. Somehow this person in e mirror feels like a stranger to me. I no longer noes her. She looks so tired. Where's e smile on her face? She wears a mask to work, a mask to meet ppl, a fake smile mask. Now even tat mask is weighing her down. Finding it so hard to even to force out tat smile. What is left of her? A auto-pilot body wif no other emotions.

Tml is my co Sports Day. Last yr I joined 4x400m relay. HE trained together wif me for the big day. My team got 2nd. This yr, I was 'forced' to take part again cos one of e ger got preggy cnt run. He's no longer there to train wif me n give me encouragement.