It's Thu!!! Din manage to get fin transferring e photos from Serene. Too many pics liao.... Super tired... This week everyday onli sleep 3-4 hrs. Shag sia. Eyes like panda.. Hey I'm not having exams!!! CY says I have Dopamine so no need to slp oso hyper. Haha... Very funnie CY. I need caffine!!! YAWNZ!!!

Today received the news tat e papers are approved by the Court. So only left with he signing it. Then everything's case close le. Dunno why, when I have to inform him this pcs of news, I feel anger building up. I dunno where e anger comes from though. Funnie.... Anyway, it's a relief. Things finalli coming to an end.

Blog abt happier stuff... Serene transfering photos taken on Mon to me now. Then I cn blog abt my exciting SDC visit n baking exp :D

Due to some reasons... I have removed some pics from my previous post to protect my fren :)

Daddy n Mummy finalli back from Kelong after 3 days. They were gone since Thu. So no one to cook for me :( and guess wat, I lost 1kg!!! hahaha.... Then my mum said, if u stay alone, I'll become 皮包骨 in no time. lol...

Tml going SDC with my dearies!! So excited!! Muz take lotsa of pics n upload to my blog :D Getting better each day hoping this will cont n I cn move out of the 回忆屋.

加油！加油！加油！

Friday is clubbing day!! If dun go out on a Fri nite, it seems like something's missing... hahaha..... Anyway, it's VT's bday so gave us the EXCUSE to go makan then go D.fly again. kekeke.... Simply love e crowd. Getting more n more ppl join our clubbing gang liao ;p e more e merrier mah... then more fun!!!

We had dnr at Marche instead of the usual Sushi Tei. But I still tink Sushi Tei better.....

Crepe. I share with VT.
Rosti with Chicken sausage.

Following is a pretty long list of photos taken at D.fly. The most no of pics taken ever!!! hahaha.... I'm glad I hav a GOOD camera phone!

With Yutaki (singer at D.fly). Jia Li's (3rd from left) idol!! She's shy to take with him alone so we be 'extra' loh....

VT & the 3 boys (as how my big boss always call them)

Another shot... cos it's too 'smoky'....

Then 3rd one... Mr Fatimah act cute!!! OMG!!!

VT & ME!!!

Jia Li, Jason, VT & AT

Then Mr Fatimah wanna squeeze into e pic too!!!

My turn to take with them :D

Mr Fav & ME!!! He's my fav but he's attached le :( :( Love his hugs, his cute laughter n easily blush face!

Mr Fav lose in 5-10. Then VT attempted to make him drank.....


ME & Luis. A new fren I made last nite :) His grp of frens shared table wif us n we made frens :) I feel he looks like one of my ex... hmm.....

And this morning I woke up n found this!!! Toopid Jason!!! So rough... Play 5-10 lose liao pinch me :( boohoo.....after this i realised got another small one on e other arm!!! ARGH!!!

We had so much fun last nite!!! I cn be this happi w/o him in me life too. He's not worth my tears.

Thursday le!! Suppose to be on MC today. Doc says I'm too stressed out need to rest at home. But I told her, I rest at home lagi more stressed cos I'll be thinking of my unfinished work!! :( Then e blur me, forget to brg my HP. Sigh... Wat a way to start a day... Some more later meeting Mr Unemployed for lunch...

Felt so handicapped w/o my hp :( sigh....

Juz found out this morning tat e watch I hav been wearing for 3+ yrs has stopped. Time for me to get a new one. It stopped on 18 Oct. It cant bare to move toward 20th? All e watches I own now are from him. I love watches. So if you are thinking of wat to get for me for my bday or xmas, get me a watch ;p e more e merrier! heehee....

Have a wonderful Mid Week!!!

Sorry for e typo in my previous post. Not used to type in Chinese. then din dbl check oso ;p

Ivan & Milky - 我相信他就在地球的某个角落。我希望当他遇见我的时候，是我最丑的时候。这样，如果他爱上了我，他爱的是真正的我，而不只是我外表的美。

放了三天病假，工作堆积如山，怎么做都做不完：（ 可恶的眼皮又重得要命，想开都要花好大的力气。买了冰咖啡提神。认识我的人都知道，我不喝咖啡。因为喝了我会吐。我和友人到Gloria Jeans 买了Voltage。味道不错。可是我没喝完，因为喝到剩一点时，我感觉有点想吐。不过还好，眼皮轻了一点，挨到了下班时间。每天都好累啊！作工总是打不起劲，想要完成的事项都没做完。在这样下去，我的工作表现要受影响了！明天一定要把那些过期的事项作完！加油！！

Back to office.... engine din heat up cos I'm sick... din eat lunch... wanna go see doc but cust kept flowing in... by e time cn go, already almost time to knock off. sigh... did my body unknowingly 'fall sick'? Cos today is 20 OCT.... On this date, 2 yrs ago, it was my customary... we arranged to go back to e restaurant to celebrate on this date this yr.... sigh.... I doubt he rem all these n today...

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星期六到图书馆去借书。这本书吸引了我。《回忆博物馆》- 唐希文。还没读完这本小说， 但它的前序给我留下了深刻的影像。

“有些事情，过去了就是过去了，不能挽回。时刻放在心上，只会让人停滞不前。执着於不能改变的往事，不能为将来开拓新道路。回忆是用来回味的，不是给人用来后悔的。

有时会想，放弃不是可耻。学懂如何适当的放弃，是一种学问。人啊，只有一对手。双拳握得越紧，手掌中的东西越难看见。握着的就算已经变坏了，也察觉不到。要学会松手，视线才不会被阻挡；要学会把变质的东西放弃，才能空出一双手，拥抱更美好的未来。

一边放弃，以便拥抱，我们都是这样长大的。”

放弃了，我才能拥抱未来的幸福。我相信，与我携手伴老的他，会出现的。

Tml gng back to work le... Though very bored at hm, but the thut of gng back to work still sianz... ;p

Until last Fri, I was guai guai staying at hm rest. Then Mr Unemployed was SO SWEET to cm deliver me VCDs to watch. Cos I complain to him I feel like watching movie but I'm kanna grounded.... He brought it to my hse for me... Sweet...

Sat suppose to go watch Butterfly Lovers with Sally. But she last min sms me says she not free :( But I already booked e tix online!!! So I tried calling my frens n Ivan dearie to accom me go watch. None were free :( Mr Unemployed was so sweet AGAIN, he cancelled his appt wif his fren n accom me go watch e movie...

Then, when we were at PS, GV ppl checked n found tat my internet booking was given up cos I need to collect e tix 1/2 hr b4 e show cos I use e HSBC prepaid card to book.... -.-" Since we were already there, we bought e tix over e counter. The original timing onli left 1st row so we took e next time slot....

When ppl is sway huh, it always comes in combo of 3s. When we were already seated inside e cinema n e show abt to start, I suddenly feel like shitting!!! wa lau eh.... I tried to 'ren' but cnt lah... so dashed out to e washroom. Come back, I missed e starting :( ANGRY!!!

Lucky thing was I still enjoyed e show in e sense that, despite e fact tat it suppose to be some touching movie, it became machiam some comedy... I'm not e onli 1 laughing loh... e whole cinema is laughing when e characters in e movie r crying, saying touching words.... Still got Wu Zun n Hu Ge... Not bad lah... Nourishment for e eyes :D

☆失落非主流 JaY ChOu☆

☆魔杰座☆

☆曲/JAY 编曲/micel Lin☆

☆永爱杰伦☆支持正版☆

☆Music...

你的绘画凌乱着

在这个时刻

我像气氛纯白的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

而你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了 走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了 倦了 我哭了

一开始都不快乐

你用卡片纸写着

有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢

我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了

开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢

我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着

在这个时刻

我像气氛纯白的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

而你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了 走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了 倦了 我哭了

一开始都不快乐

你用卡片纸写着

有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢

我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了

开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢

我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了

说好的 幸福呢

我懂了 不说了

爱淡了 梦远了

我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢

我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..

Looks like many of u are curious abt my LASIK op :) Well juz to share on my experience.

I was real nervous cos eyes onli got 1 pair!! Everything was over in a few minutes. Very fast. I lay there on e op table still feeling nervous. I juz conc on wat the doc tells me to do... Actualli juz need to focus on e red light. Tat's all! Though I cld see wat he's doing to my eye but I feel nothing. No pain. Onli smell a bit of 'chao ta bi' when e laser is cutting my cornea. There a bit of pain on my left eye though. Cos I had retinal detachment b4. So there's this pcs of plastic there lah. So if ur eyes r ok, will be painless like my right eye :D Dun need to worry. Everything will be over b4 u noe it!! n tada!!! no more specs!!! I paying it via instalments. So less heart pain :) Interest free anyway. keke...

If u wanna go n do too? Let me noe, I give u e contact. The doc is real good. Highly recommanded!!

Yest went to do LASIK. Finalli... took e step to make it happen. It feels GOOOD!!! Waking up in the morning n seeing e world clearly... WOW!!! Amazing....

I was super worried e nite b4 my op. Cos I onli went for e assessment on Tue the next day is e op le!!! I was so scared I cldn't slp.... I wanted someone to assure me it's gonna be ok. HE used to be my pillar of strength... I noe it's stupid... I went to call him to seek comfort. I noe tat's very very very stupid n show how much a weakling I am. ARGH! Hearing his voice made my mood worst. He seems so distant n no diff frm a stranger. And I still so itchy eyes go see his facebook profile. Sigh... e bitch Jessica Leong, openly sending him wedding band n kisses on facebook. He oso changed his profile to 'In a relationship'. boo...

I was glad I called K. He made me feel so much better. At least I cld stop crying after talking to him. He gave me a asssurance I needed n his comforting words eased my pain. A pity, he & I cldn't be together. Not now n not in e future. Having him as a fren now is better than anything else. I truly value our friendship. I love him, as a fren.

Stop self indulging in self pity as though e whole world owes u. If u need help juz ask. Keeping quiet u wan ppl to notice? Make urself heard if u wan ppl to noe. If ppl dunno, wat cn they do? Stop saying until machiam u very wei da tat u cont to push urself to work n nearly fainted on e way. Who will noe if u dun say? U tink we r God? Knowing ur every move?

I'm not in a very good mood lately. Even if u din step on my tail, I'll oso scream n shout at u n get a scolding from me out of nothing. If u dun wanna kanna any mo ming qi miao scolding frm me, stay clear. Get lost!

I need a **** it seems to be e onli thing tat cn calm me down nowadays. It sounds like an excuse but somehow, it works for me, at this pt of time. Though everytime I get tis floating, like gng to faint feeling after tat but I feel calmer.... temporarily....

Rem I bought 2 bedsheets tat time? TADA~ Presenting to you, my e other new bedsheet :) Sweet hor?? Just like me... kekeke.....

Thanks all of u.. I'm feeling better le. Tension b/w mum oso ok leh. Anyway, cnt go backpacking liao. Cos I gng to do LASIK. Then cnt travel for 2 weeks :( but tat means, I'll be free from contact lens n specs from then on!! Yippee.... But will hav to bare wif no tv, no msn, no using comp for at least a week to rest my eyes. So now muz blog. So ppl, u hav to wait some time for my next blog entry le... off to fin wat I need to do fin b4 my op tml :)

Better not be lazy need to update on last Sun event. As I wun be able to use comp for the next few days....

Went Sentosa wif Ivan dearie n Serene. Ivan wanna go sun tanning we 2 gers juz be pei ker to go there hide in e shade n boi hunkies ;p

Got one body not bad n looks cool in his shades... But I told Serene, sometimes, when e guy remove e shades is CMI de. True enuff... He dun look tat gd w/o them....

Then got another even worse!! Though body not bad but his swimming trunk like too small... can see his P hair sticking out from e top edge... euuuwwww....

E sun is so freaking hot, we evacuate e pl after 1 hr or so after reaching ;p we went vivo to enjoy some air con n ate Ben n Jerry!!! YEAH!!

Our Mix-n-Match
Mango, strawberry n New York. YUMMY!!!

We went shop ard a bit... then saw OP having his buy 2 get 1 free promo..... So ended up Serene n I each got 3 skirts!!! Gosh!!!

After tat we headed to Queensway Shopping Centre as Serene wanna get POLICE tank top. The quality is gd n looks gd on me... kekeke... BHB... Buy 4 get 1 free... so again I end up buying 2 n serene 3 ;p

Proceed to IKEA for dnr after tat cos we were hungry le... kekeke.... And we ate so much food!!! This is so sinful!!!!

Just 3 of us n we ate this much!!! FAINT~

We went ard walk walk in IKEA after dnr cos we were too FULL!!! And thanks to Ivan for being our model n brought so much laughter to us :D Tink he regretted bringing both of us out... kekeke....








We r realli very pig... cos after laughing n n touring round IKEA we went to Dempsey Hill n had these!!!

Tiramisu...

Calamari wif chips...

Finalli a photo of us 3....

Uber pissed. Though I expected it coming but still.... sigh... A mother cursing her own daughter to get AIDS.

WTF!

She came into my room n wanna talk to me abt yest me gng to my guy fren's hse. I told her dun meddle so much lah. She cont to ask if ur daugter like tat wun u be worried. I told her I noe wat to do de lah. Then she walk off n said this when she's at e door, "Later u kanna AIDS then u noe." Damn pissed. "So u tink I anyhow slp ard lah?" I shouted. She ignore me n went out of e room.

This is not e first time she said such things to me. I hate when she said those stuff. Come on lah. I'm her daughter leh. Calling her own daughter social escort, prostitute, getting AIDS... KAoz! Wat kind of mother is tat?

F*ck!

Communication plays a critical role in any r/s. When communication breaks down. There when all the problem come setting in. Pattie say these to me,

"he is the sort of guy, when he hits a bad patch in his r/s, he does not seek to resolve it, he will bear till he could no longer hold it, then flare up. Once it happens, he will be super stubborn in his decision unless someone whom he is close with, is able to talk sense into him. In those 'bad patch' days, if he comes across a girl whom he can get along with, he will then be tempted to leave the old r/s for the new one. However, he will not leave his old r/s until he is sure he would be able to get the new girl. Also, while he is with you, he will still do/say the things that you want him to, because to him, that is already part of a routine which he can say without any feeling... it does not mean anything to him. He does not like handling girl's temper, so instead of not doing it and letting the girl have a go at him, he will guai guai do it so to have peace.

If he is unhappy and frustrated, he prefers to speak to his gal friends instead.... there is this girl he knew from poly days (can't remember her name.. but she is quite big size one) then there is also his god sister. So in fact, prob the only persons who knows what is going on in his mind is those 2 because he does not know who to have an open communication r/s with his other halves."

He dun tell me abt any prob he's facing. It's always me doing a 1-way communication. I dunno what's gng thr his mind n it oft frustrates me when he tell other ppl (most of e time r GIRLS) abt his prob. I'm there, his wife. Why can't he tell me?? Aren't we suppose to share e burden?

Why I cnt let go. Bcos I cnt forget those sweet memories he had created for me. But when I tink abt them it's like so freaking long ago.... For e past 1 yr or so, it's been more unhappiness. All those rejections, neglect, coldness.... shit... tearing again....

DC said, He n I were e most loving couple he had ever met. And if he has a wife/gf praise him like how I praise tat idiot, he wld feel so proud. Cos the wife/gf is so proud of him.

Sigh.....

3 entries in a day!! this shows how bored I am today :( Can a guy & ger be juz frens?

Well, today suppose to go ktv wif my family. Then my mummy chu pattern say she not feeling well so not gng liao. So end up everyone nv go loh :( sigh... I've been craving for ktv!! Anyway, I was bored n wanna go take nap. Then my fren sms me to jio me out. Since I go nothing better to do at hm so I went to meet him loh.

I went over to his place, watched Iron Man together, chat a bit then went dnr at Bedok 85 market (e famous bak chor mee...). My mum called when I was at his pl...

Mum: Where u go?
Me: Meet fren loh.
Mum: Where r u nw?
Me: At his pl.
Mum: A guy?
Me: Ya.
Mum: Why u go his pl? Wat r u doing?
Me: We were watching DVD. sigh.
Mum: Who is he?
Me: Tell u, u oso dunno who is he.
Mum: U got a lot of frens hor?
Me: Yah...
Mum: Why do u hav to go his pl?
Me: (WTH....) Can u wait until I get hm then talk?

Then she hang up on me. As usual. Why a guy n ger cnt be juz frens? Muz hav something gng on de meh? Aiyo.... Buay tahan leh..... She kept saying she's not old fashion then why she ask so much? She tinks wat? I slp ard ah... pek chek..... She's my mum leh... how cn like tat tink of her daughter? If those 3 gu 6 po wanna talk then let them talk loh. She's my mum at least shld trust me rite?

Then I wanna go backpacking wif Mr Unemployed. He's kor's fren for 10+ yrs. So I've known him for tat long too. I ask my mum whether cn I go not. Instead of fearing it's too dangerous for me, she says, "Unless he's ur hunsband then u cn go." I was like -.-" I tink he treats me like a little sister or shld I say brother? I cn juz be myself in front of him. It's ok if I dun look gd in front of him. Wear lok kok n specs. Laugh real loud. Totalli no image. It's juz like gng wif a ger fren. I noe she's worried but I'm already 26! Stop treating me like a 16 yr old kid! After wat happened, I juz wan to get away for awhile n not tink so much. Can she juz give me a breather?

Went to eat at this real marvelous teppanyaki restaurant at chijmes - TATSU. Passed by there so many times, wanna try it but nv. HE said he would brg me there one day to try it together. But tat day nv came. It'll nv come too...

Ayway, I was feeling dwn last week, CY jio me out to go eat n chill out on Thu. The food there is suberb I tell u. The protioning was small, CY n I thut it wouldn't be enuff. But no!! E bit by bit add up to a very filling dnr!! So damn full after tat loh. E beef is e best! So tender.... Mouth watering... WOOOO.... MUST TRY!!! Unless u dun take beef... awww... tat's a pity ;p e chef grill e prawn head too. n made it so crispy!! The meal cost us $118.95 loh!! 2 pax onli!!! Good food comes wif a price......

The Chef who whipped up e delicious meal :)

Wat we ate!!! From top-left:
Appertizer, salad, giant prawn mayo,
salmon, sotong, BEEF,
yaki udon, mixed vege, fried rice,
miso soup, prawn head, fruits.

After dnr we proceed to Odean Twrs... 2 kuku dunno how to go up to Loof, we climb e stairs next to e lift. Cos we were too full wanna exercise abit. End up e stairs leads to nowhere!!! Faint... Then it's so spiral then I become so giddy on my way dwn -.-"

Inside e spiral stairs...

We realised onli e lift will take us to Loof. We got there, find it too hot... cos open air n onli wif a few big fans ard.... we turned back n go check out SupperClub.

We din wanna go e wrong way again, CY when to ask the security guard. keke... Then we realised there's signs on e pathway to lead us there....

The moment we enter, there a bouncer there to lead us e way. There's a restuarant inside too but we r not there for dnr so we proceed directly to e bar.

The stairway to 'Hell'...

Cos of e colour combi.. then e restaurant is like Heaven... All white with big cushions.... We agreed that we shld dine there next time. So we asked to see e menu. The waiter said there's no menu. It a surprise menu. You juz eat what e Chef cooks... hmm... interesting... Of cos u cn specify wat u cnt take or dun eat... Then u wait for ur surprise..... This surprise comes with a price of $109 per pax!! WOW!!! Though it's on e high side but realli interested to go try it.... next pay day ba.... kekeke....

The toliet is another surprise!! The bouncer told me 2nd door on my left... when I went in, I saw a guy inside!!! And e 1st door!!! Before I went in I checked e door for any ladies sign but there isn't... So it's unisex??!!! Lucky I din scream or wat... Then it will be so 'throw face'!!! So it dun realli matters which door u go in from. It's connected inside...... It's all so dark inside e toilet... n spacious cubicles.... hmm... makes my thuts run wild... opps.... *sensored*

It was an enjoyable nite. At least perk me up after 3 long days of downess.... Thanks CY :)

Welcome to my Butterfly Land :)

Changed a new blog skin... having e different tags abit troublesome. Still prefer all on 1 pg then I cn put songs oso :)

Yest Sports Day was a disaster. So many ppl tripped n feel, one even got his shoulder dislocated! My division got overall champion for consecutive 2 yrs! If this yr we win again we'll get to keep the trophy. BUT luck was not on our side. Everything juz got cocked up n we lost e championship. Sigh... talked abt it makes me angry... anyway it's over n I din get to run my 4x4oom. boo.

Felt so offended... I'm tat fat meh? Pissed off.....

Incident 1: One guy said, "You are not fat, you're juz plump." %&%^*&$%#! To me, plump is juz a nicer word for fat!

Incident 2: Office printing tees for my Wellness week. So according to e measurements given I placed order for S size. Then someone said, "Huh? You take S? You sure you can wear?" WTF! I look tat fat meh??

Incident 3: We collected e tees and I found out S size is too short. Not tat I cnt wear, juz tat when I lift my arm, I might juz expose my tummy area.... So I changed to M size. Which is longer but looks a bit lose on me. I tink it's ok lah. More comfy oso mah. So wear to office today for Sports Day. Then this idiot ask me, "You wear wat size? L ah?" ANGRY!!!! Do I look as if I need to wear L??!!!

Do I really look tat FAT?? :_(

Poster by David R. Stoecklein

3rd day. Still not feeling any happier. Tears juz flow like a running tap last nite. Like a broken tap to be more precise. Fell aslp while tearing. I din cry, I onli teared. M called me last nite to comfort me. He offered to lend me his hand to brg me out of this misery, even if it's juz for this difficult period. He says if I'm willing, I'll juz need to ask. But I dun wan to do that. I dun wan to 'make use' of him to get over my heartache. Though it's realli so nice n sweet of him, I juz cnt be so mean to treat him like a spare tire or worse, a can drk (which Qi describe), throw after drking.

I wan to feel e breeze. The sea breeze. How I love the sea. Someone told me, I love the sea so much cos I'm a teochew. It's in me. Teochew used to live by the sea n mostly r fisherman. Tat's why Kor loves fishing n I love e sea? OUR first date was to ECP. So long ago... so long ago...

Mind not working. Body not working. Drifting everyday. Floating ard like a lost kite.

I cnt recognise myself in e mirror today. Somehow this person in e mirror feels like a stranger to me. I no longer noes her. She looks so tired. Where's e smile on her face? She wears a mask to work, a mask to meet ppl, a fake smile mask. Now even tat mask is weighing her down. Finding it so hard to even to force out tat smile. What is left of her? A auto-pilot body wif no other emotions.

Tml is my co Sports Day. Last yr I joined 4x400m relay. HE trained together wif me for the big day. My team got 2nd. This yr, I was 'forced' to take part again cos one of e ger got preggy cnt run. He's no longer there to train wif me n give me encouragement.

I know many others out there are gng thr worst pain than I am. But this is the worst I've felt in my 20 odd yrs. I'm like a walking zombie, trying to be happy & forcing myself to be happy. I felt e liberation when I decided to forgive him. But tat does not mean e heart dun ache once in a while.... sigh.... sometimes I cn juz lose my cool for no reason. Feeling all pek chek for nothing. Gng thr some roller coaster emotions. There's even some pt I feel like walking out of office n run in e rain. I no longer has e drive to work or do anything. There's like nothing to look forward to everyday. Juz waiting for each day to pass. I've moved out for 2 mths now. How time flies n how things changed. Who is there to witness my life? The man is no longer there. The divorce papers stirred my hidden emotions. And he's like got 6th sense tat I've received e draft and asked me for a copy. I read thr e details, every word juz pierce thr my heart. Certain things I cnt write here cos my dearies will be so worried n I'll get hell from my mother. I noe they all meant well, but tat's wat keeping me gng all these while. I feel like throwing everything n go for a long break overseas. But given the current market, how to? Ppl r fearing of losing their job n here I wan to throw away everything... Work cn no longer keep my mind occupied. I kept having e urge to run to e rooftop to let e wind blow onto my face. To blow away my sorrows. Bring them away with e wind. Being a strong ger is tiring. There r times I realli feel like giving up. Who is there to pull me up n lead me far away from all these unhappiness? Take me by my hand n walk by my side. Brg me to a pl where there's no heartaches.

So many times I hav e light headed feeling. Like I'm floating. OR I'm gng to faint? Too tired of putting up e strong front. Too tired not to tink abt wat happened. Too tired trying to brush away every unhappy thuts. Too tired of everything. Tat's why how ppl go into depression?

我真的很累了。谁来带我离开这伤心地？

I sent Pattie my apologises via friendster message tag and this is wat she replied:

"hey hello... No worries about it...already forgot what happen... Err you sound upset ? are u ok ?"

Then she send me a 2nd message:

"Becoz of your message, out of curiosity I went to your blog. I am sorry that this happened to you. You definately deserve someone better...the things you talked about.. was the exact same thing I went through those X numbers of yrs I was with him.

Well, you definately deserve someone who is better and who love you and give you a secure future.

He seems to be a big kid who never grows up as it seems that what started off could be rectified if he would be willing to talk things through and sort it out with you.

Anyway, you take good care and you will definately find your happiness soon ya! :-)"

I added her in facebook, and I gained a fren :)

Dedicate this song to all my heartbroken dearies. Juz let me forget. How cn I still treat u as a fren when I still do love u?
http://www.qq163.com/song/6302/83073.htm

薛凯琪 - 一个人失忆

你要旅行 我还不能去
你不开心 我还是不是原因
总不确定 我还能够靠你多近
两个人 翻来覆去
你的简讯 是一般的语气
你的关心 都有些小心翼翼
还爱着你 我要怎麽才能适应
两个人 只剩朋友关系

就让我一个人失忆
消失在你的世界里
就当我任性 不懂体谅你
让我 躲在角落安静的放空着呼吸
就算
我知道你也不愿意
消失在我的世界里
可是我不能 再自然看你
装做 两个人 什麽都没有发生
一个人失忆

你的简讯 是一般的语气
你的关心 都有些小心翼翼
还爱着你 我要怎麽才能适应
两个人 只剩朋友关系

就让我一个人失忆
消失在你的世界里
就当我任性 不懂体谅你
让我 躲在角落安静的放空着呼吸
放空着呼吸

就让我一个人失忆
消失在你的世界里
就当我任性 不懂体谅你
让我 躲在角落安静的放空着呼吸
我知道你也不愿意
消失在我的世界里
可是我不能 再自然看你
装做 两个人 什麽都没有发生
一个人失忆

Having Monday Blues?? As usu, din accomplish much at work today. Zombie all e way... YAWN.... Met David for lunch. Known him for abt 4-5yrs but nv met him before. Know him online but how, I dun rem le. I still rem I was working at TMC then.... So excited meeting him for the first time!!! He's a British but now working at Australia. He's here for a week to visit his gf. So we arranged to meet up :) I was too shy to ask him to take a pic wif me... *blush* It's realli nice chatting wif him. Paiseh to let him treat me to lunch........

Saw this while waiting for him to quene up n buy lunch.... It says, "so wat if i'm bitchy." hahaha... i like tat :D so wat? *show cocky face* box me lah!

I cannot decide which one I prefer.... I like the layout for the first poster... 2nd one cn see their yan dao face clearer... kekeke..... Anyway, saw this at the CD shop the other day so watched the 1st ep on youtube today. Where to find all e shuai ge united? Wu Zun, Xiao Zhu & Jerry! Though I onli like Wu Zun & Xiao Zhu.... But Jerry's appearance add on to e drooling to watch lah.... kekeke..... Tink i'll go get e DVD cos watching it online is a bit tedious... small screen n such :( Ladies, wan some drooling?? This is e drama to watch ;p

Guys playing basketball - 帅！

Celebrated Helen & Jason's bday on Fri. Went to eat at Sushi Tei AGAIN but it's our fav mah. So no complaints :P Then proceed to Dragonfly. As Edwin will not be joining us there, we cut the cake at Sushi Tei. It taste like rocher... yum yum.... but too bad a bit nuah liao cos out frm e fridge for too long :(

The bdat cake :) We customized it to be superman n wonder woman!!!

Bday 'boy' n ger... He looks like her father.... hahahahaha.....

Din talk any pics when we were at D.fly cos they r e lot who dun like pics... but we did had a great time there. I was too shagged out after e long week I head hm at ard 3am. Instead of our usu 4am timing..... KO e moment my head hit e sheets!!!!

But I cnt waste my beautiful Sat, I woke up at ard 11am then nuah abit n jio ppl out :) Met Mr Unemployed to play pool. But I was hungery so we went makan first.

Appetizer b4 the movie..... cos I was HUNGRY......

then I saw this.... hehehehe..... greedy cldn't resist FOOD!!!!

He's nt tat li hai in pool oso. hahaha... laughing at how clumsy n lousy each other are. Then Sally came cos we gng to watch The House Bunny together! Dar was late... as usu..... -.-"

The movie is damn funnie loh. Then e ger is super duper bimbotic!!!! Then they says reminds them of me!!!! !@$#%$%$%!@@! I'm not tat bimbotic though I'm a bimbo... Shld watch if u wan a gd hearty laugh :D

After movie, I suggested going to Kallang there to eat Mushroom Pot. Bad move. Cos yest dunno got watch concert, e pl is fully booked!!! So r all e other restaurants!!! :( So we walked to Kallang Leisure Park to look for food. End up eat Pasta Mania *roll eye* go all e way there to eat PASTA MANIA??!!!! nvm lah, it's e company tat counts rite? Laughter's e best medicine. They nv fail to make me laugh. Esp my Ah Dar. *Hugz*

It was onli 9+ when we left e pl. The nite is still young but Sally got to go back acc her grandmama then Ah Dar still tired frm her Shanghai trip, Mr Unemployed meeting frens to watch soccer... :( hur hur..... Then LUCKILY, Francis sms me to jio me go ktv pub at Boat Quay, so I went :D

Long time nv meet up wif him le cos he's always flying here n there for work commitments. It's great to meet up again to catch up a bit. Then his frens were there too. Then got this cute 'little' guy (cos he's onli 22...) who is his fren's fren was there performing street magic to entertain us. He has real beautiful eyes... Can't help but look at them n smile to myself like a toopid idiot. Oh Gosh!!! I feel so hua chi!!! *faint* He said I look like some HK actoress by e name of 'Hui Shan'... Dunno who is she.... So I smile at him to show some courtesy. He's cute lah n cn tell he got a lot of nu ren yuan type. And he sings bloody hell well loh!!! If onli I'm 4 yrs younger.... *slap! stop being a bimbo!* Din get his no cos he's TOO YOUNG for me. Nononononono... See see enuff le :p

Movie Marathon for me this week... lol.. watched 3 movies k!!! Mon to Wed....

Mon - Painted Skin (The touching one)

Tue - Eagle Eye (The action pact)

Wed - All the Boys Love Mandy Lane (The gruesome one)

Out of all these 3 I prefer the painted skin. Cos e movie touched my heart.... Serene says, stop relating it to urself!! Well, i din, juz tat why in reality there's no such love?

Din planned to watch this. But M chose this over House Bunny.... The killings were bloody... then e plot was realli unexpected... cn watch if u hav e time n loves bloody scenes....

Nice movie :) Except tat it's 2hrs long!! Sit until backside flat liao. My left leg cramp when e movie fin.... High tech gadgets n it's scary how e govt monitors e citizens every move... freak out sia...

Thu no more movie... went to eat my long waited XO crab beehoon!! Yippie!!! Slurp!!! Still tinking abt it today... heehee... Photo of it up later cos forget to brg my cable to work today... Mr Unemployed is so nice to treat me dnr... I offered to return him money hor... juz tat he din take ;p

4 diff guys on 4 diff days... hmm... all diff character n personality. An analysis of them....

Their plus points:

Mon - Sweet, Tender Loving guy.

Tue - Charismatic guy

Wed - Warm, Passionate guy

Thu - Most Gentleman, Down to Earth guy

Their minus points:

Mon - TOO YOUNG!! I not cradle snatcher....

Tue - Too indecisive.

Wed - Can be possessive type. Too overwhelming passion.

Thu - SUPER BLOCKHEAD.

Wat I doing on FRIDAY?? Of cos to go PARTY wif my clubbing kakis from work!! Celebrating HL's bday tonite!!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!!