Went to watch Painted Skin last night. It was impromptu as my fren onli sms me yest to ask whether I wanna go watch. I did thut of gng to watch it but I'm afraid it's gonna be scary n give me nightmares... But turned out it's a very touching story. Esp how much Pei Rong (Zhao Wei) sacrifice for Wang Sheng (Chen Kun) all out of her love for him. Though Wang Sheng love the demon, Xiao Wei (Zhou Xun), too but he told Xiao Wei, "王夫人只有一个." aww......

Pei Rong noes Wang Sheng loves Xiao Wei too n found out she's realli a demon but she sacrificed herself, telling everyone she's e demon who killed all e men, so as to stop Xiao Wei's killings n let her be wif Wang Sheng.

Though Wang Sheng killed Pei Rong wif his own hands (as he's e General, he has to kill e 'demon'), he still loves Pei Rong n this is wat she told her, "你是我夫人,不管你是人还是妖,我都会永远爱你."

awww..... how touching... too good to be true in real life ba. Till death do us part? It's a just fairytale in our current world....

Went to watch this with Sally on Sat at Cine. We concluded that the F4 in this movie r not yan dao enuff... :( The male lead, Domyugi, onli look shuai in e topless water scene... He's too skinny too!! When he piggyback the ger, he like gng to fall liao.... hmmm..... Quite funnie lah e show. Then there's this part whereby e ger ask e guy what's his dream? Then I thut of HIM again. Dun worry, I'm ok :) Juz tat I realised my dream no longer has him in it a long time ago... When we first got together & got married. I cld picture us growing old together n holding hands walking in e park. Before all the whirlwind happenings took pl, I actualli dun hav tat picture in my mind anymore. I cld no longer see e future together wif him...

We had supper at Suki Sushi at Cine. Cos we din wanna go too far when we r both so hungry le... When guys get together, they talk abt cars n gers. So when gers get together, they talk abt fashion n guys... keke... We both share e same sentiments that why guys r so attention seeking? When u give them all e attention, they treat u like dirt. Then when u dun give them attention, they do all sorts of stuff to grab ur attention. Once they got it, they treat u like shit again. F*ckers! So they juz wan to make sure u r still theirs? Sally's ex is like tat, so was mine. E guy said, "I dun like/love u anymore." But they machiam still wan to make sure u'll still stupidly waiting there for them n twirl us ard like kite. WTF! Tat kind of feeling sux loh! We dunno wat they wan n they onli come look for us when they r feeling down or no one to be wif. So wat r we? Support pillow or spare tyres?

I kanna this last min job on Fri from my boss. He says, "I want this on Monday." The thing is, I cnt do it right then cos office dun hav e software to do it. I hav to do it at HOME. Which means OT for me over the weekend. Ok nvm. I managed to fin it and email it to him. It's suppose to be a poster to be published in the newspapers.

I did the layout which I tink it looks good. But he came back and asked me to change this n tat. The changes made e layout looks boring n so BLOCK.... wat to do, he's my boss... Something I learn at my workplace, it's not abt doing it rt or wat, it's abt doing it e way ur boss wants it to be. So I change loh. Emailed him liao. He haven get back to me so I tink ok?? I dun wanna brg my lappy to work!!!

Friday went Lunar wif 2 of my cols to celebrate a fren's bday. Maybe he's too hurt to be frens wif me after tat nite ba. I'm sorrie but I hav to do tat.

This fren, I got to noe him thr a fren. My 6th sense told me he's interested in me so I tried to avoid him. I ignore his calls n smses hoping he'll get e hint. He did stop 'pestering' me for a while then one day he sms me. I thut he got the msg n we cld remain frens. Then we exchanged a few smses n I know he still haven gotten over it. So I told him str, he's not my type, we cn onli be frens. I thut this is clear enuff to him but he still persist. Sigh. I tried to be nice cos though we cnt be couples we still cn be frens. Why can't he see tat? He's bday came n invited us. I went cos I thut after my 'rejection' he cn si xin le. But no.... So I have to do something very very mean to let him realli die heart. If u hav gone clubbing wif me b4, u'll noe how I dance. So tat nite, I danced wif praticalli everyone except him. I even did a sex dance wif one of them. Another reason why I chose tat guy was to make e ger he likes jealous lah. The rest of e nite, e ger stick to him. I told him I did tat for him so he wun mistaken me :)

I left at 2am wif my 2 cols. Shortly after we left, he sms me. Asking me to stay. I ignored his sms. He kept on smsing me thr'out e nite till 4am. I replied saying we cn onli be frens n tat's it. I'm already very nice enuff to offer him my frenship. If he persist, I'm sorrie he will be blacklisted.

Not tat he's not nice or wat lah. He's juz not my cup of tea. I dun feel anything towards him. I realli hope he'll understand....

Tada!!! My new BED!!!! Super big sia... kekeke... Got room for my dearies to bunk in with me :D


This is how it looks like on e cover... The bedsheets is reversible de. Cn put either yellow or white. Then my mum choose yellow...

My OWN shoe cabinet! All to myself wif onli MY SHOES!!! hahhaha.......

My daddy & mummy realli dotes on me :D They accom me to buy the stuff n helped me to clean up the room b4 my new bed arrive. They oso helped my to spread on e new sheets. I'm a gd ger too!! I bought them cakes from coffeebean. Got mummy's fav cheesecake... but not frm fiesta. Tat's her FAV!

Love is hard to express in words to them. So I show my love thr FOOD!! Making sushi this Sunday. Dearies, if u ppl wanna eat it, u cn cm too!!! Let me know earlier k? Muackz!

I took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Takes easily and quickly to anything which provide..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Overdued photos AGAIN!!! This was taken last Wed. Met Mr Unemployed for dnr at Bedok to eat Botak Jones :) He was so nice to go n queue up first and I made him waited for soooo long he nearly died of hunger ;p We packed back to eat at his sch cos he perspire easily. So he says eat there so hot, might as well go his sch got aircon.

Although I call him Mr Unemployed, cos tat's wat he call himself too, he's not unemployed. He's a part time lecturer & oso open a sch with his partners at Bedok....

Back to e food... Both taste good :) And I got sooooo FULL!!!! Cnt fin ah!!! But I fin e bottle of aloe vera in his fridge.... Used up a lot of energy to open it loh... e lid is so tight shut!!!

Fish & Chips

Chicken Something.....

This made me laugh..... Some China brand laptop he bought when he was teaching in China.

He wanted to get a new one but this old one simply dun wan to die... Then I touched it... the screen blackout!!! Opps..... 神舟沉了! I told him my current too strong tat's why.... hehehehe.....

But after letting it rest for a while, it came back to life.... So it's me??? Current realli too strong?? LOL.....

Then e next day meet him AGAIN!! He suppose to brg me to go eat XO Crab Bee Hoon. But fly me kite :( So I said he die-die muz accom me go watch movie. And I picked Mamma Mia.

I find it a great show! I love e singing and the storyline. I nearly teared at the scene e mum helping e daughter to get ready for her wedding... I thut of my mum... n on my weddin day.... Now I'm back by her side, I will treat her better than I used to be....

Another touching part is whereby after 21 yrs, e guy still love e ger n asked her to marry him. How e misunderstanding cleared after 21 yrs!! I rem this phrase,

"If you really love him,

Set him free.

If he returns,

He's yours.

If not, then love was not meant to be."

I have set him free. Which also set myself free :)

Went Partyworld behind office last nite. Had tons of fun & laughter :D Sing until I no voice liao loh.... E finale still sing One Night in Beijing. Faint...

Food there so-so lah. Then hor, while e system a bit siao siao one. When we press no. '5' the song will repeat -.-" Then at one pt the sys cockup & del all songs we hav selected!!! We waited for quite a while for the sys to reboot loh. Sigh. Onli gave us 15min extra & they r unable to restore e songs which got deleted!!! :(

The food.... Clockwise from top left corner.....
Steam fish set, Hokkien Mee, Char Kway Tiao, Seafood pasta, Xin Zhou Fried Rice. The fish & fried rice not bad lah. e rest ok onli loh.....

I tried taking their photos.... then a hantu appeared in e background........

The onli guy last nite. He was in this real 'sexy' poise then we tried to take his pic.... so conincidentally he turned n 'caught him in e act'.... hahahaha.....

Love e way they make me laugh & e way they talk so loud until cn overpower e mic!!! I'm glad to hav met them :)

MISC

Some random stuff......

CY made this for me cos I helped him to burn DVD. He's a nice guy n realli noes how to enjoy life. Ladies, he's attached so hands off huh.

From CY again. He's realli a great pal :) This is wat he wrote on the note: "Be joyful instead of happy as happy depends on happenings but joy comes from within!"

He oso lent me this book. Nice one. I'm still reading it. Gives me e jive to work harder to achieve wat I wan in life.

My col's bb 1st mth. So cute rite the cupcakes :) Lovely. Though I juz came back frm lunch, I still ate 1 :P

Went to Super Imports Night last Fri. Took this pic cos the bike is so damn small like toy like tat. But cnt realli see e size of it from this pic lah.... I told my mum I say e car i wanna get in 2 yrs time. A $200K car. She say I muz be crazy :P I'm not, tat's my aim to earn lots of money n pamper my parents wif e money earned. Also to get my dreamhouse..... So I started small by getting a NEW bedframe n mattress. It's queen size!! Was thinking very long shld I get it not. But still went ahead with it cos my current bed is giving me backache :( Also got a new shoe cabinet. Total cost me $1328. Great deal!!! Cos my mattress is king koil ok... spine support de.... It's coming on Wed, which is tml. Then e garang guni coming today to take my old bed away... hmm... looks like tonite I need to slp on e flr le..... but it's ok, juz 1 day.....

Wenlong's bday Celebration on 13 Sep

Went back Malaysia for my youngest cousin 1st yr bday celebration :) Had a great time catching up with my dearies there. Their company r precious to me.



Ivan wanted to take this photo wif me. He said put this in ur blog and tag it as, "My cutest BF."

My dearie, Junfu. "My youngest BF??" keke....

With the bday BABY!!! He looks uncomfortable :( but he's very smart loh. He will observe how u do things then he try on his own. Once he got a hang of it, he applies it on other things.

Got e smoky feeling....

G4. Gosh I look damn slim in this pic!!! hahaha...

Happy Family :D

So whose bday??? hahaha...

With e other bday boy.....

Kanna sabo-ed by us :)

With my beloved ah gong :D

Loving sisters!

The G4 who helped to clear the tofu dish which small aunt thut we wun be able to fin......

Dar's Birthday 12 Sep!

We had dnr at White Dog Cafe@Vivo :) We were there early n waiting for e other 2 to reach... we camwhore.....

Dar & Me :)

Me with my Mangolicious. Dar asked for extra servings of the mango cos her fren was working there.....

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Dar with her bday cake... suprise from her fren working at the cafe, Angel Baby :)

3 of us with e cake :P It's yummylicious!!!

Kissing the bday ger at Boiler, St james.

Kissing my Angel Baby :*
Dar with Ah Chun.... they looks compatible together but too bad no sparks......

So many outdated post haven post. sigh.... I wan to blog abt my youngest cousin bday, my new addidas running shoes which i bought it together wif my dearies, cheer up gifts from CY, dnr wif Mr Unemployed, and movie wif Mr Unemployed to watch Mamma Mia, my test results.....

I need more time!!! And I'm too slack!!!! So let e pics do the talking.... :P

Weicong's Enlistment on 12 Sep 08

Super overdued photos from my darling didi's enlistment. The journey "Where Boys Become MEN".

Didi & his gf

Almost whole family went to send him off for e big minestone in his life.

Lunch at BMTC School 2. Mummy is complaining, "Why no drumstick??!!!" Chicken wings sux too :(

After lunch, the boys begin their journey to become MEN. WC turned n looked at us.....

Take care my dear bro! I see u on 28 Sep!!

'Stole' this from Lotus' blog :P

When I was bornI was loved by my parents
When I started to go to school
My parents’ love turned to phobia
They wanted me to be
Everything they desire
Piano class, Ju Suan class, swimming class, ballet class
And the lots…where is the love?

When I entered my teen,I began to wonder
Why my chest is so much higher
and why do I need to ‘bleed’
making me sick and uncomfortable..

I began the journey of exploring, conscious of myself
I wanted to look pretty.
I started to make-up already
I want a life without parents' control
I hated their interference, I hated when they said
‘Girl, you finished your homework?
why are you always talking on your handphone?’

I started LOVING myself more,
Now my friends are most important of all
I find my parents do not understand me …
I started to have ‘secrets’
‘Secrets’ that I shared with my friends,
because i think they understand.

Moving away from my parents mentally
Excuses ...the GAP... a generation gap!
Why my anger builds up every time they talk to me
I had to scream, I had to shout,
I had to turn my face and shut my ears..out

My parents – why is my child behaving like this?
We cannot understand them anymore.
What are the ‘youngsters’ thinking now a day?
They watch with concern but kept their silent.

I started crying – my first heartbreak...
I broke off from my boy friend...
it was like the end of the world
oh! Idiot...how could this happen?
I am so overwhelmed with grieve, self pity
and ME

When I started working,
I am a ‘matured’ young woman.
Guys swim around like fishes in the sea.
My mind are fed with fashion, brands and luxuries
and possible ‘available’ husband to be!

I picked the man I LOVE,
or I think they LOVE me.
More are the cases – Most are not the cases!
I am the happy bride..

One day I woke up with a ‘bang’
My husband is not mine anymore..
why? why? Why?
Where did I go wrong? What did I do wrong?
Why that shit ‘woman’.. why not that shit ‘me’
Why am I so blind, why did I fall for his kind…
Why that sweet talking idiot
said all the things he didn't mean!!!!
and got me into this unacceptable whirlwind!

Anger, frustrations, pain, self denied, withdrawal,
Depression and sleepless nights
All because of this Man
who break my world like glasses
and leave me to clean up the pieces
My world shattered, my pain suffices, my tear flows
and the pain in my heart is killing me!
I can’t breathe, I want to die..
just buried me alive..

I forgot the LOVE of my parents
watching from afar…
I shut the door and pushed them ‘out’
oh! so long ago?
But I did not realized
They are going through pain…
when I inflicted pain on myself
Why?
Because they have a LOVE that I owned
but I did not want..
a LOVE that wrapped around me like a bandage
to protects me from 'damage’
BUT I tore them apart!
because I think I am smart

I started looking back..
No matter right and wrong
My parents’ arms are an opened 'Home'
A place I can rest before I pick up my pace

I picked myself up, I moved on
I learnt my mistakes, and I’ll stand tall….
I am not shutting my heart to LOVE
So when the next one comes around..
I am prepared for love battle ground.

The world continues to turn,
things continue to happen
The same song will be sung over and over again
to different people in different land
Be it girl or man,
some are lucky and some are ain’t
But what the heck!
LOVE is the name..
that keeps the world both SANE and INSANE…

Good morning all my dearies & loyal supporters :) With all the love & concern everyone has given me, I've become stronger, braver & happier. Walking out from the darkest moment of my life wasn't easy feat. But all of you have been so patient wif me and be there for me to go thr e roller coaster journey. My heart felt thanks to all of you :D

I need to post this entry first thing in the morning cos I dun wan all of u to worry abt me on this beautiful 18 Sep. 3 yrs ago, on this day I got married to e man I loved. Someone so dear to me. 3 yrs later, which is today, I'm reborn. I've forgiven him & myself. Forgiveness has brought me happiness. But there is someone I realli need to thank. He came knocking on my door soooo many times. Yest, I finalli gave Him a chance & opened up my door. He showed me the light & the path to forgiveness. Which freed me from misery. I'm not a Christian or Catholic. But Jesus came & brought me home. I prayed to Him yest (which my fren intro me to) & He answered my prayers.

I dun hav good feeling abt gng to church when my frens invited me in e past. I had been once but din realli like it. Though I went to a Catholic pri sch, I din get converted. Somehow religion needs fate too. Juz tat my time hasn't come for me to open e door to Him. Afinity, I wld tink this is.

I respect other religion. I do not tink who's God is more superior to others. It's juz how fate brg u to e one u believe & cn find peace in. It's something like LOVE which cnt be forced.

Thank you once again all my dearies, frens & virtual frens I made during this period. Realli appreciate everything you ppl have done for me. Free hugz for all of you :) MUACKZ!

Changed a new blog skin :) Spend half a day on it. opps.... Work & do it of cos.... Alt Tab!!! Hahaha....

Free Hugs for all who needs them!! I know it has healing powers. Dun ever underestimate a hug :) When u need it, I hav it for u. I hav plenty to share :)

Cheers & Hav a wonderful mid-week!

But cnt seems to change e alignment... Some left some centre.... any kind soul wanna enlighten me??

Met my insurance agent cum fren for lunch today. Due to the AIG huha my mum was very worried so I arranged to meet up wif him today. Got it settled and we chat over coffee abt my personal affairs. I told him abt e part whereby how terrible it felt when e man u loved told u right in e face n say he dun love u anymore. It hurts a great deal. It was a death blow. Guess wat he told me? It was very awakening :)

"你要想，那个人已经不是你爱的那个人。他已经是另一个人了。因为你爱的那个人会在你对他说你爱他时，也对你说他爱你。这个人已经不爱你了，他也就不再是你当初爱的那个他。他已经是个陌生人。陌生人讲的话你又何必太在意？”

Well, it does make sense. He's no longer e man I love who treats me like his darling princess. I'm juz a b*tch who call his new baobei names. Yes, he did call me a b*tch when he called to scold me yest.

Wake up feeling giddy this morning... having more n more symtops of e illness.... :( Hope e test results turns out ok. Everything juz come in at e same time in waves. When a person is down on luck, nothing goes well. Wanna juz conc n work but e giddiness is making me hard to conc! If take leave & rest at home, wa lau, my mind will wander off thinking all sorts of nonsense. Dun wanna tink abt unhappy stuff. So forced myself to work :(

My dearie drew this for me. So cute. Made me smile :)

Thanks for all the encouraging tags from Leng Leng, Sad, Shannon, Milky, Qi, Slow, Alice & Ivan. Milky, Jasmine not included in e J list mentioned :)

I feel so much better after his call. Not worth. 18 Sep is nothing to be afraid of. My heart no longer feel e bitterness when I passed by Aljunied station on my way home just now. (FYI, he stays at Aljunied n I staying at Eunos now.) That's a good sign :) I'm a brave girl. I no longer afraid to slp alone too.

Went to see doc today. I thut it was sorethroat but somehow it felt different. Then my neck oso swelling... Doc check liao says it's my tyroid swallon. Doc suspect it's hyperthyroidism so draw my blood to do a blood test. 3 days later then will know e results. But she says most likely it's ok de. She just wan to make sure. Now cn onli wait loh.

HE called to scold me cos e b*tch complained to him I called her a b*tch here. Well, 若要人不知,除非己没为. Got e guts to do it dun hav e guts to face it? Still insisting it's PERFECTLY ok to call someone else's husband at 3am. "Why drag other ppl into this?" he shouted. Well, she's part of e story isn't it? This is my blog, I b*tch abt my own story, why cnt? Come on lah. She dun wan to be called b*tch then dun behave like one. If she dun like wat is said here then dun come here n read.

Nv had he stand up for me like this in e past. Now he's doing this for her. So nothing between them? U judge.

A B*tch cm spying on my blog went to report to HIM on wat I wrote. Dunno her full name. Onli knows she called Jacqueline. This b*tch was the one who called him to chat at 3am!! Who in e rite mind will call a not-so-close colleague at 3am to complain abt her probs? She herself shld noe better loh. Her husband got another woman outside so she wanna go seduce other ppl's husband too? Slut.

So he sms me said he nv say anything bad behind my back n cn divert any gers to my blog to put them off. Come on lah, he cn juz tell them how my ex-wife defame me make those accusations. Make himself look pitiful like wat he did previously.

Simply irresponsible. Why get married in the first place when he cnt honor it?

Realised something, Jessica, Jacqueline & Jerk. All starts with a J.

Delicate this post to Pattie. To tell her how sorry I am for what I did years ago. Though she might not rem but I still owe her this apology.

Pattie, I'm really sorry.

Pat was HIS ex. He left her & came after me. KARMA. sigh. Back then he said how bad she was and I made very nasty remarks abt her in my blog :( So naive of me rite? He must be talking abt lots of bad stuff abt me to his frens n e new ger. Telling them how terrible I was :(

This is what Pat told me years agao......

"My Dear Aeris,

Until now you still do not understand? The fact is that anyone with a brain who knows Weixiong would have known that he only has 1 gf for the last 5.5yrs unless like I say or you can tell me that he was 2,3 or 4 timing me the same time. Yes I want to end this thing, I need to tell you that unlike you, I may not fancy spending time over these nitty gritty stuff. To be very honest, I would very much like to thank you. You know why? Well…after looking through your blog yesterday after my friend informed me of its existence…if that blog was meant to make me upset, YES YOU have SUCCEEDED. But if your intention is to make me feel ashamed, guilty, embarrassed or maybe hoping that after my bf read the blog, will turn against me….Well…I am SORRY but to say that you have FAILED miserably. Your moment of arrogance and insensitivity only makes me see you and Weixiong in a new light. For a moment, I was very upset that the man I had been with for half a decade had been so pretentious all the while, spreading tales about me to his new gf and friends while remaining so friendly towards me. The only reason why I said that was, I have never met or know you….there is no reason why I should cause you to hate me so much. You also claim that friends that know me and him had said how horrible I treated him, well all I can say is my words against his. The truth is, I was never close to any of his friends…how are they to judge me? Well, only through what he told them I guess. So have you spoken to any of my friends, whom I am close with to get both side of the picture? I doubt so. Well, what you wrote up there only cast a bad light on both of you…to be telling tales when you can’t produce solid proof, pronouncing some one guilty without knowing the full tale. Today, only did I realized that what a fool I had been in the past and was never as glad as now to be able to leave that relationship. I had never felt so happy and relieved and its all thanks to you. You actually made me realized how fortunate I am now, to have the support of my parents, friends and boyfriend in this issue. And last but not least, before I totally delete Weixiong’s name on my friendster list and also throw away all remaining traces of what I possessed still to be able to have a memory of him, I like to remind you of a word call KARMA. I am a strong believer of KARMA and it is true that what goes around comes around. I sincerely hope that one fine day this word will dawn upon you and then you will know how the universal works in its many strange and fascinating ways."

Her words came true. I was really stupid. Totally blinded by his pretentious front. Notice the line I bold? He was oso doing tat to me!! Pretending to be nice n such but he's brewing something else secretly.

BAST*RD!

To Jessica Leong, you beware too. Otherwise you'll be the next victim.

Talked to my fren n cried. She asked me a few qns and some were realli hard to ans.

HER: "How are you feeling now?"
ME: "A mixture of feelings. Angry, upset, guilty, wasted..."

HER: "Wat was is tat u angry abt?"
ME: "How cn he treat me like tat? How cn he juz turn his back n go?"

HER: "Why upset?"
ME: "When I tink of those happy memories n upset why things turned out like this now."

HER: "Why guilty?"
ME: "Bcos of the wrong things I've done."

HER: "Wat have u done for urself to make urself happy?"
ME: "..... I cnt tink of any....."

HER: "Wat makes u happy?"
ME: "When I do thing for him which makes him happy."

HER: "Did you do them cos u feel u need to do tat?"
ME: "No. Cos seeing him happy n I will be happy."

HER: "Did u tell him tat? Does he noes? U cnt juz keep doing things for other ppl to make them happy. If 1 day tat person is no longer there, u'll feel lost n dunno how to make urself happy. U have to learn to love urself n make urself happy."
ME: "......."

HER: "We r not pointing finger at who's at fault now. But when unhappiness happens do u talk abt it?"
ME: "I talked abt it but he din do anything to resolve it. He din see it as a prob."

HER: "But do u noe wat's bothering him? Did u ask?"
ME: "I did. But he nv said anything so how am I suppose to noe wat I did wrong?"

HER: "Do u wan to salvage e marriage?"
ME: "I wan to but.... there bound to be scars n things wld nv be the same again."

HER: "Then do u tink u will be happy?"
ME: "I might be worse off....."

HER: "Yes, u might be even more miserable n then to find out it still din worked out. We all noe it will fade, it's juz a matter of time. Telling u not to tink abt it will not help cos u will still tink. Face it. Face it bravely n u'll overcome it. It's not easy but if u dun face it, it will always be there. Do sometime tat makes urself happy. Not for anyone else but for urself. I noe it's easier said then done. Though others might go thr e similar situation as u but it will nv be e same. Cos it's e diff feelings, diff person, etc. We cn be here for u but everytime telling u e same thing it's not gng to help anything. Dun dig e hole deeper then buried urself in it. U'll die. Everytime u survived a setback, it'll just makes u stronger."

She said a lot n I cried a lot. I have too many qns wif no ans but will it do any help if I noe e ans to e qns now? Does it change anything? NO. But why do I still wan to noe? I oso dunno why actualli. Sigh.

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I cldn't resist n still go n ask him who gave him e ring. He said he bought it himself. Wanted to ask him why? But does e ans mean anything? Why do I want to ask tat? I oso dunno :(

My tears keep flowing down like a broken tap :( How to turn it off??
Are those memories just memories now? It dun hold any significance at all? Why I cant juz let go when he cn do it with so much ease? Is there something I cn eat/drk to forget all these?

Today rained. Made me tink of him again. *slap myself* I used to complain tat e umbrella makes my bag very heavy.... So he use to carry umbrella ard, cos he said juz in case it rains, he cn shelter me. tat was such a long time ago.... sigh....

Then I shld realli slap myself real hard. Cos I went facebook to check his profile :( sigh... saw the photos her God sister uploaded for her wedding. Saw tat he was wearing a ring on his 4th finger. But tat was not our wedding ring. Sigh. Upset again :(

Then he sent a gift to a secret someone. Why so secretive? Cos he noes I will go spy on him so he did tat ba.

Why am I still so stupid to go and see such stuffs to make myself even worse?? Felt like crying again. But this wun help anything. Feeling like calling him to scold him upside down. But wat help will it do? Sigh.

Feel like slapping tat b*tch. But I onli knows her name is Jessica Le0ng in FB. ARGH!

This entry realli made me look so stupid. But I tink e stupidess thing is I fell in love with tat jerk & brought myself wif all these misery. To make myself even more stupid, I wish one day he'll come back n say sorry, let's start again. I'm a God damn FU*KING STUPID MAGGOT BRAIN!!

I hate my current self :(

今天是中秋节，感觉特别感伤。眼泪会不自禁地流。我不想哭，可是它就是不听话。好难过 ：（

Long overdued photos. Uploaded them but saved in drafts for donkey days :P Our dearies outing on 6 Sep :) Simply LOVE them!!!