I thut I dun hav to write abt HIM again. But I juz felt so pek chek loh. Sigh.... He used to always give me the excuse that he's busy with his work, assignments, blah blah blah. No time to do this with me, no time to do that with me oso. Everything postpone again n again or simply rejected me. If u say I din put in effort to this marriage, I beg to differ. Nobody deserves to be neglected. If u tink tat doing e dishes, washing e clothes is doting me, then I rather I do myself n he spend more time wif me. My point is, the root cause to all these probs sets in when he REFUSE to spend quality time wif me even when I intiated. And all those excuses are simply lies! If now he cn go malaysia wif his fren, go clubbing, gng out to meet frens almost everyday and gng back late at nite, then I dun see the reason why he cnt squeeze out the time for me in e past. At this juncture, he will say, "Why say all these now? It's all in e past!" Well, why I say cos I was suffering in silence all these while. Everyone thut he was soooo god damn good to me but he was not! I put effort into managing the r/s but wat had he done? I cnt say wat I did was rite, but human is not w/o emotions. I din noe that being neglected I cn actualli file for divorce. Otherwise I wld hav done so then. I dun hav to try n love him again onli to find tat he is not sincere in making amendments and make things work.

He tinks I cnt wait to get a divorce cos I got a lawyer so fast. Well, I did tat to send e signal tat this is serious. I'm not kidding. But he takes it as I cant wait for it. So it backfired lah. But I oso get to noe wat kind of person he is.

I noe he has low self esteem. So I always make it a pt to compliment him to boost his confidence. But wat has he done for me? Except degrading me in front of my frens. I nv once heard him praise me in front of others. He was nv proud to hav me as his wife.

WTF. Dun wanna say liao. This is so maddening! ARGH!