回顾以前谈过的恋爱，曾经有个让我深爱的男生。可惜，我们相遇在错的时间，没能一起走到最后。他给予我的温柔，是我一生难忘的回忆。如今再想起他时，心中有种莫名的惋惜。我不得不同意人们说的那句话，“与你相伴到终生的他，未必是你这一生最深爱的他。”
我从不相信，一个人爱另一个人会爱到病倒。在他之后，我相信了。因为我，为了他，病倒过。他给了我渴望的那种疼爱。他是如此的温柔体贴。就连分手后，他还是如此的温柔对待。他让我感动。每次我不开心时，他都会陪在我身边。我问他为什么。他对我说，“I want to be there for you whenever you are upset.” 他真的都做到了。 我也不想改变现在和他的关系。因为朋友是一生一世的。至少，我们曾经相爱过。
Saturday, August 30, 2008
So tired.... kanna woke up by e planes from the Airshow. Argh!!!! Disturb my beauty slp!!! Last nite went Thai Disco. It was disastrous loh. Sigh... It was boring n the so call 帅哥 were 小白脸 type loh. Totalli not my type. Sianz..... Wanted to leave at 1am but my driver need some time for his alcohol to subside b4 we head home. End up we onli left at 3am!! Damn tired. Well, my this driver fren actualli 人不错的, juz tat he too 'Fatimah' lah. He cn be so lor sor at times de.... But when he takes care of his frens he realli very nice n provides tender care. Well, everyone got there plus n minus pts. No perfect person out there loh. He future gf muz be able to tahan his lor sor-ness. hahaha..... no way I'm fallin for him. He's too lor sor for me :P Took 1 photo last nite. But dunno who's camera, so nothing to upload here.
New thing I tried this week - Thai Disco
Rating - 1/5
Conclusion - gave it 1 pt for those who were there wif me
And I lost 1 more kg!! I tink my weighing machine is spoilt..... Anyone wanna get me a new one? LOL....
New thing I tried this week - Thai Disco
Rating - 1/5
Conclusion - gave it 1 pt for those who were there wif me
And I lost 1 more kg!! I tink my weighing machine is spoilt..... Anyone wanna get me a new one? LOL....
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Since when my tagboard become a debate center? anyway, I dun tink I hav failed tat badly as a wife lah. Of cos I noe it takes 2 hands to clap lah, but when onli one side is putting in effort n e other is not, not matter wat u do oso no use de mah.
I cant say I'm a very gd wife but I tried to be one. There are a lot of things I did for him which I tink not many women will do for their husband ba. I tried all means n ways to seek his attention, juz to hav more time wif him loh. But sadly, his attention span was short.
I cnt say I'm realli pretty, but at least I dun tink I'm ugly lah. It's in me to doll myself up for e man I love. But whether he appreciates it anot is another thing. I even took up exotic dance n did lap dance for him to spice up e bedroom experience. I read in mag tat women who went for brazilian waxing, their hunsband/bf realli love it so I went too. He wanted the PS3 so much, I pre-order it online. I cldn't help him in his work n studies so I show him support by gng over to hug n kiss him. I cook dnr for him. Bought him a mp3 player so he cn listen to on his way to work n when he goes jogging. Bought him e brain booster cos he tinks his memory is not gd. The list juz goes on.....
I noe sometimes I juz lose my temper but I juz an attention. When e soft approach dun work I tried e hard way. Both ways din work. So how? I dun deny tat I hav my faults too. But he dun resolve it wif me and happily go out n find someone else. Then tat's not e way mah.
Watever it is. It's all in e past lah. I've moved on n enjoying being single again. Juz e intial stage is a bit hard to accpet n handle. If I cn feel nothing n juz move on, than I'm not human with a pumping heart.
Indes - I pity ur wife actualli. The way u put it, it makes her like a bimbo. A flower vase for u to brg ard n show ppl. Sigh. Sadz.
Milky - If he wan to cont hate me, then let him be ba. I've moved on.
SF - No longer moody. I cn realli laugh from my heart now :) I'm a strong ger rem?
Ivan, Qi, Shannon, Xiong - Thx for being there for me :) wat ppl wan to say let them be ba. We cnt stop them from saying wat they wan. As long as we r clear of wat we r doing then will be fine le. The God up there is watching n He knows everything :)
Alice - It's ok to flood my tag :) U'll be fine de. U hav to stop tinking abt e gd old days. E future is in ur hands to create. Create more happy memories wif ur family n frens. Not necessary hav to be e other half :) Jia you! U cn do it ger!
Go slp liao. Today sick. Better go rest early..... Nitez....
I cant say I'm a very gd wife but I tried to be one. There are a lot of things I did for him which I tink not many women will do for their husband ba. I tried all means n ways to seek his attention, juz to hav more time wif him loh. But sadly, his attention span was short.
I cnt say I'm realli pretty, but at least I dun tink I'm ugly lah. It's in me to doll myself up for e man I love. But whether he appreciates it anot is another thing. I even took up exotic dance n did lap dance for him to spice up e bedroom experience. I read in mag tat women who went for brazilian waxing, their hunsband/bf realli love it so I went too. He wanted the PS3 so much, I pre-order it online. I cldn't help him in his work n studies so I show him support by gng over to hug n kiss him. I cook dnr for him. Bought him a mp3 player so he cn listen to on his way to work n when he goes jogging. Bought him e brain booster cos he tinks his memory is not gd. The list juz goes on.....
I noe sometimes I juz lose my temper but I juz an attention. When e soft approach dun work I tried e hard way. Both ways din work. So how? I dun deny tat I hav my faults too. But he dun resolve it wif me and happily go out n find someone else. Then tat's not e way mah.
Watever it is. It's all in e past lah. I've moved on n enjoying being single again. Juz e intial stage is a bit hard to accpet n handle. If I cn feel nothing n juz move on, than I'm not human with a pumping heart.
Indes - I pity ur wife actualli. The way u put it, it makes her like a bimbo. A flower vase for u to brg ard n show ppl. Sigh. Sadz.
Milky - If he wan to cont hate me, then let him be ba. I've moved on.
SF - No longer moody. I cn realli laugh from my heart now :) I'm a strong ger rem?
Ivan, Qi, Shannon, Xiong - Thx for being there for me :) wat ppl wan to say let them be ba. We cnt stop them from saying wat they wan. As long as we r clear of wat we r doing then will be fine le. The God up there is watching n He knows everything :)
Alice - It's ok to flood my tag :) U'll be fine de. U hav to stop tinking abt e gd old days. E future is in ur hands to create. Create more happy memories wif ur family n frens. Not necessary hav to be e other half :) Jia you! U cn do it ger!
Go slp liao. Today sick. Better go rest early..... Nitez....
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Marriage Passbook
Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount.
Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'
Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made.
This was what they did after certain time:
- 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage
- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn
- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali
- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant
- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted
.
.
.
.
..... and so on...
However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... no more love...
Kind of typical nowadays, huh?
One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!'
Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'
Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account.
While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.
The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happieness you've brought me.'
They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe.
Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life.
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Interesting email I received. Well, when a couple quarrel, they onli see the unhappy events & bad side of the other. But if onli one side sees the other's good, things might still not work out. Cos the other side no longer feel anything towards e wonderful memories they created together. It's either he/she dun cherish or simply dun love the other half deep enuff & give up without a fight.
One critical element - Communication. It plays an impt role in any r/s. Seek to understand before being understood. Wat u tink/assume might not be e truth. And if u assume, it juz make an ass out of u & me.
Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Realised a lot of stuff which I din do well in. Wat are e areas I need to improve on. Blessing in disguise ba. On my route to be a better person :)
Oh I lost 4kg too!! heehee.... another blessing in disguise :P
Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount.
Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'
Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made.
This was what they did after certain time:
- 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage
- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn
- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali
- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant
- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted
.
.
.
.
..... and so on...
However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... no more love...
Kind of typical nowadays, huh?
One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!'
Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'
Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account.
While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.
The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happieness you've brought me.'
They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe.
Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life.
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Interesting email I received. Well, when a couple quarrel, they onli see the unhappy events & bad side of the other. But if onli one side sees the other's good, things might still not work out. Cos the other side no longer feel anything towards e wonderful memories they created together. It's either he/she dun cherish or simply dun love the other half deep enuff & give up without a fight.
One critical element - Communication. It plays an impt role in any r/s. Seek to understand before being understood. Wat u tink/assume might not be e truth. And if u assume, it juz make an ass out of u & me.
Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Realised a lot of stuff which I din do well in. Wat are e areas I need to improve on. Blessing in disguise ba. On my route to be a better person :)
Oh I lost 4kg too!! heehee.... another blessing in disguise :P
Monday, August 25, 2008
I thut I dun hav to write abt HIM again. But I juz felt so pek chek loh. Sigh.... He used to always give me the excuse that he's busy with his work, assignments, blah blah blah. No time to do this with me, no time to do that with me oso. Everything postpone again n again or simply rejected me. If u say I din put in effort to this marriage, I beg to differ. Nobody deserves to be neglected. If u tink tat doing e dishes, washing e clothes is doting me, then I rather I do myself n he spend more time wif me. My point is, the root cause to all these probs sets in when he REFUSE to spend quality time wif me even when I intiated. And all those excuses are simply lies! If now he cn go malaysia wif his fren, go clubbing, gng out to meet frens almost everyday and gng back late at nite, then I dun see the reason why he cnt squeeze out the time for me in e past. At this juncture, he will say, "Why say all these now? It's all in e past!" Well, why I say cos I was suffering in silence all these while. Everyone thut he was soooo god damn good to me but he was not! I put effort into managing the r/s but wat had he done? I cnt say wat I did was rite, but human is not w/o emotions. I din noe that being neglected I cn actualli file for divorce. Otherwise I wld hav done so then. I dun hav to try n love him again onli to find tat he is not sincere in making amendments and make things work.
He tinks I cnt wait to get a divorce cos I got a lawyer so fast. Well, I did tat to send e signal tat this is serious. I'm not kidding. But he takes it as I cant wait for it. So it backfired lah. But I oso get to noe wat kind of person he is.
I noe he has low self esteem. So I always make it a pt to compliment him to boost his confidence. But wat has he done for me? Except degrading me in front of my frens. I nv once heard him praise me in front of others. He was nv proud to hav me as his wife.
WTF. Dun wanna say liao. This is so maddening! ARGH!
He tinks I cnt wait to get a divorce cos I got a lawyer so fast. Well, I did tat to send e signal tat this is serious. I'm not kidding. But he takes it as I cant wait for it. So it backfired lah. But I oso get to noe wat kind of person he is.
I noe he has low self esteem. So I always make it a pt to compliment him to boost his confidence. But wat has he done for me? Except degrading me in front of my frens. I nv once heard him praise me in front of others. He was nv proud to hav me as his wife.
WTF. Dun wanna say liao. This is so maddening! ARGH!
It gets very tedious when one slack for too long n nv update blog... have so many photos to upload!!!! Then my entry will be so long!!! A test of my summarising skills.......
Went to watch Pathology last Tue w my Ivan dearie. It was a great movie!!! Love the plot though a 'bit' gross lah certain scences..... But definately worth the $$$$ :D Lucky we had Long John for dnr, and NOT tomato sauce pasta..... EEEUWWWW......
I told Ivan I wan Set 1 but he says 真没创意. So I ordered this, mango sauce fish wrap. Suppose to be their new pdt lah. Not bad :D
Rem I was on course last week? And e experiment I mentioned? Well here is it.... We are suppose to balance a match stick with one end touching the metal cup n e other end connected to a fork n spoon... We din think it is possible! How can tat be?? Magic ah?? But NO!!! IT IS POSSIBLE and we did it!!! See pics below....
See?? It's haning in mid air!!!
Top view. No gimmicks. No Photoshop!
I made a star base. It's so strong we cn stack the ice creams sticks easily. My grp mates were impressed wif my STAR :D I made another one to place on top. heehee.
Side view... Steady ah!!!
2nd experiment. If u hav a strong foundation, u cn climb high. A strong foundation is thus very impt. May it be ur career or r/s, if e foundation is not strong, it will collapse one day. It's juz when onli. Build up ur foundation now. Dun wait till it's too late.
After e course went to hav dnr at CHIMJES wif CY. Wanted to go Cityspace again but the kitchen closed for reno :( Din get to eat e nice nice pizza which CY reccommanded. I was all prepared for e pizza!!! So we went CHIMJES to look for alt. We settled at the restaurant bar where e old ChinaJump used to be... It's smaller now. Not much crowd too.. erm... shld I say onli got e 2 of us?? Hahahaha.... But e pizza is superb!!!
I was so hungry le. But e pizza is taking a long time to be served :( CY said, it's a gd thing, at least u noe they din use e ready made ones. hmm... tat's a gd one :) at least gd food is worth e wait mah. So I begain drawing a smiley face on his plate :P
Finalli our seafood pizza came!!! It's so yummy loh!!! SLURP!!! We fin it n craving for more!! So we ordered another one... hehehe.... another long wait....
So I drew another face :D
Smoked Salmon pizza. Not as nice cos e smoked salmon to salty :( But still gd lah....
We had our drks there too.... Sat there n chat... Thanks pal, for keeping me company n listening to me talk n talk n talk :P
Fri went Dragonfly to celebrate Jia Li's bday :) We got her idol Yutaki to sing her a song!! She so shy as he looked at her when singing... kekeke.... We asked her to take a photo wif him but she's too shy n refused! Aiyah....
Bday girl poise for my camera :P She a bit drank liao. She cnt take beer de. 3 mugs she will be like this liao.
Me n bday girl. Look at her drank face.....
With e gers who were there n stayed till midnight to sing her e bday song :P
(side note: e taxi driver call me 小妹妹. hahahaha.... damn happi sia!!!)
They gave me this. To keep me company. Love u gers. MUACKZ!
Sally & Me & 兔兔
Went to watch Pathology last Tue w my Ivan dearie. It was a great movie!!! Love the plot though a 'bit' gross lah certain scences..... But definately worth the $$$$ :D Lucky we had Long John for dnr, and NOT tomato sauce pasta..... EEEUWWWW......
I told Ivan I wan Set 1 but he says 真没创意. So I ordered this, mango sauce fish wrap. Suppose to be their new pdt lah. Not bad :DRem I was on course last week? And e experiment I mentioned? Well here is it.... We are suppose to balance a match stick with one end touching the metal cup n e other end connected to a fork n spoon... We din think it is possible! How can tat be?? Magic ah?? But NO!!! IT IS POSSIBLE and we did it!!! See pics below....
See?? It's haning in mid air!!!
Top view. No gimmicks. No Photoshop!The next challenge is to balance as many ice cream sticks as possible on a ball. How many do u tink u can balance?? We said 15. But in actual fact we managed to balance 10 times of wat we thut we could!!! We can even stack more lah, but e point is already been demostrated :P
I made a star base. It's so strong we cn stack the ice creams sticks easily. My grp mates were impressed wif my STAR :D I made another one to place on top. heehee.
Side view... Steady ah!!!Wat's e moral of e 2 experiments above? Well, wat u tink is impossible, it's actualli possible! U juz need to try to know. If one juz tink or assume n not do, he/she will nv find out. Oso to make it work, u need to find the balancing point, the centre of gravity. Once u find it, u cn balance it. Juz like in life, we oft complain we hav so many things to do n so little time! We dun hav time for our family, our frens n we r always busy wif work!! If u cn find e balancing point, u cn jaga between ur loved ones n ur work. Also one need to know wat's ur priority. Ur loved ones or ur job? If u lose ur job u cn always find a new one, but once u lose ur loved ones, they will nv cm back. It'll be too late to regret. So peeps, tell ur loved ones u care n tell them u love them. Give them a hug today :)
2nd experiment. If u hav a strong foundation, u cn climb high. A strong foundation is thus very impt. May it be ur career or r/s, if e foundation is not strong, it will collapse one day. It's juz when onli. Build up ur foundation now. Dun wait till it's too late.
After e course went to hav dnr at CHIMJES wif CY. Wanted to go Cityspace again but the kitchen closed for reno :( Din get to eat e nice nice pizza which CY reccommanded. I was all prepared for e pizza!!! So we went CHIMJES to look for alt. We settled at the restaurant bar where e old ChinaJump used to be... It's smaller now. Not much crowd too.. erm... shld I say onli got e 2 of us?? Hahahaha.... But e pizza is superb!!!
I was so hungry le. But e pizza is taking a long time to be served :( CY said, it's a gd thing, at least u noe they din use e ready made ones. hmm... tat's a gd one :) at least gd food is worth e wait mah. So I begain drawing a smiley face on his plate :P
Finalli our seafood pizza came!!! It's so yummy loh!!! SLURP!!! We fin it n craving for more!! So we ordered another one... hehehe.... another long wait....
So I drew another face :D
Smoked Salmon pizza. Not as nice cos e smoked salmon to salty :( But still gd lah....
We had our drks there too.... Sat there n chat... Thanks pal, for keeping me company n listening to me talk n talk n talk :P
Fri went Dragonfly to celebrate Jia Li's bday :) We got her idol Yutaki to sing her a song!! She so shy as he looked at her when singing... kekeke.... We asked her to take a photo wif him but she's too shy n refused! Aiyah....
Bday girl poise for my camera :P She a bit drank liao. She cnt take beer de. 3 mugs she will be like this liao.
Me n bday girl. Look at her drank face.....
With e gers who were there n stayed till midnight to sing her e bday song :PSat went to hav steamboat with Sally n Dar :) It was raining e whole day wor. Juz e weather to eat steamboat!!! Not as gd as I expected but e company rocks!!!
(side note: e taxi driver call me 小妹妹. hahahaha.... damn happi sia!!!)
They gave me this. To keep me company. Love u gers. MUACKZ!
Sally & Me & 兔兔Named by Sally dear
Dar & Me & 兔兔
All together now!!! The waiter is so nice, he offered to help us take this pic :)
弟弟 & 兔兔
Went interview on Sun. All dressed up in jacket suit. I dun even wear that to office!! Makes me feel like an insurance agent.....
Lunch at this Korean Rest at Far East. Liling was there too, but din get to take pic wif her :(
The Hot Plate Chicken. Ok loh... So-so....
The pancake has too much flour. We din fin it....
Dar & Me & 兔兔
All together now!!! The waiter is so nice, he offered to help us take this pic :)
弟弟 & 兔兔My precious possessions now :)
Went interview on Sun. All dressed up in jacket suit. I dun even wear that to office!! Makes me feel like an insurance agent.....
Lunch at this Korean Rest at Far East. Liling was there too, but din get to take pic wif her :(
The Hot Plate Chicken. Ok loh... So-so....
The pancake has too much flour. We din fin it....Dunno I tink too much or wat, I told them my col ate at this rest n LS. I LS 3 times since last nite..... hmm....
Liling show us her super chio blusher!!! See e blink blink?? E real thing is even nicer loh!! Took a pic of it n ask my fren to get frm US... heehee.... It comes wif e brush too!!! wooo......
Went shopping after dnr. Then I saw this addidas bag with an eagle on it. I couldn't resist not getting it for Ivan dear. So i bought it without a 2nd thut!! Hahaha... He super love it loh :D Then I ask e salesgirl to wrap for me, tat kuku nv cut away e price tag!!! -.-"
Ivan dear, of cos I super lub u lah! And e others, dun envy, ur turn will cm when ur bday cm :P MUACKZ!
Liling show us her super chio blusher!!! See e blink blink?? E real thing is even nicer loh!! Took a pic of it n ask my fren to get frm US... heehee.... It comes wif e brush too!!! wooo......Went shopping after dnr. Then I saw this addidas bag with an eagle on it. I couldn't resist not getting it for Ivan dear. So i bought it without a 2nd thut!! Hahaha... He super love it loh :D Then I ask e salesgirl to wrap for me, tat kuku nv cut away e price tag!!! -.-"
Ivan dear, of cos I super lub u lah! And e others, dun envy, ur turn will cm when ur bday cm :P MUACKZ!
Friday, August 22, 2008
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People
Haven been blogging for e past 2 days. Cos I was on course.... Well, can say that this course came at the right time. Why? well, it sort of counselled me in a way lah. A lot of emotions run thr me during the course. A few times I felt my nose turn sour.... But I managed to withold e tears. It's a great course except that the Trainer is too boring lah....
Anyway to share with all of you a realli meaningful quote. And tat's wat keeping me moving forward.
"Each of us makes his own weather, determines the colour of the skies in the emotional universe which he inhabits." - Fulton J. Sheen
All of us have a choice. We choose to do what we do. It's not the circumstances or the people. We MAKE our own choice. Hence we need to be responsible for the outcome of that choice.
The course oso did some realli interesting experiments. I took pic of the end results but forget to bring my cable to office today. Will upload them over the weekends n update more happenings :P
Anyway to share with all of you a realli meaningful quote. And tat's wat keeping me moving forward.
"Each of us makes his own weather, determines the colour of the skies in the emotional universe which he inhabits." - Fulton J. Sheen
All of us have a choice. We choose to do what we do. It's not the circumstances or the people. We MAKE our own choice. Hence we need to be responsible for the outcome of that choice.
The course oso did some realli interesting experiments. I took pic of the end results but forget to bring my cable to office today. Will upload them over the weekends n update more happenings :P
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I dunno it's due to heartache, anger or watever. I feel my stomach turn everytime HIS image pop into my head. This explains why I kept having diarrhoea lately :( The churning feeling in my stomach is coming back again now. ARGH! Then reminds me of tat night... I din eat e whole day n waited for him to cm hm. He onli came back at 4am. I got a very bad gastric. In e middle of the argument I suddenly said, "我肚子很痛..." "你真的假的?" he asked with a doubting tone. WTF! U tink I said tat to make u pity me?? Memories of him will fade. It juz takes time.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Yest met HIM. As expected, gave me the attitude. Kaoz! I dun owe him de loh! WTF! My buddy commented, "He wear so nice? He nv wear so nice when he went out wif us in e past!"
"Well, he's now very vain. He seeking attention frm e gers mah." I replied.
I woke up today n told myself, "I will stop mopping over the divorce. I will not get upset over him again. No more tears will be dedicated to him from now on. I live my life for myself, my beloved family n my dearest buddies who are always here for me."
Try everything at least once. Tat's wat my buddy taught me yest and my new aim in life. Trying new stuff n enrich my life. I wan to try at least one new stuff each week :P hehehe..... So anything interesting stuff wanna intro to me??
"Well, he's now very vain. He seeking attention frm e gers mah." I replied.
I woke up today n told myself, "I will stop mopping over the divorce. I will not get upset over him again. No more tears will be dedicated to him from now on. I live my life for myself, my beloved family n my dearest buddies who are always here for me."
Try everything at least once. Tat's wat my buddy taught me yest and my new aim in life. Trying new stuff n enrich my life. I wan to try at least one new stuff each week :P hehehe..... So anything interesting stuff wanna intro to me??
Friday, August 15, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I cried again today. I went for my yearly eye checkup alone this morning. I have to be an independent girl, I went alone. I can't help but tink of him again. He used to accom me to every checkups. Sigh.... Doc gave me MC to stay at home. Cos my vision gets blur after the checkup. Tat's why I need someone to go wif me.....
Lay on my bed n cry after I got home. Feel the heartache... feel like dying... Lucky Mr Unemployed is free today. Went Bugis to meet him after I regain my vision. I oso din wan to stay at home n cry some more. My eyes already very pain le :( He brought me to eat my fav Mint ice cream at Swensen's. Then he accom me to get my dustbin which I failed to find on Mon. Bought a lot of other stuff too. At least my mind din tink of him for a while. Then I passed by this shop at Bugis, I start to get upset again :( Onli a few weeks back, he brought me there & bought me a very pretty dress. Argh... the heartache is back again :(
What can I say? Like wat Ivan said, wat I owe him is onli 4 yrs. Tat's why we hav to part....
Asked HIM can we still be frens. He said yes. So I tried my luck to ask him go Chinese Garden with me during Mid-Autumn. Those who are close to me u will know why Mid-Autumn means so much to me.... He rejected....
Any kind soul wld like to be wif me on Mid-Autumn?? Pls dun let me be alone on this day.....
Lay on my bed n cry after I got home. Feel the heartache... feel like dying... Lucky Mr Unemployed is free today. Went Bugis to meet him after I regain my vision. I oso din wan to stay at home n cry some more. My eyes already very pain le :( He brought me to eat my fav Mint ice cream at Swensen's. Then he accom me to get my dustbin which I failed to find on Mon. Bought a lot of other stuff too. At least my mind din tink of him for a while. Then I passed by this shop at Bugis, I start to get upset again :( Onli a few weeks back, he brought me there & bought me a very pretty dress. Argh... the heartache is back again :(
What can I say? Like wat Ivan said, wat I owe him is onli 4 yrs. Tat's why we hav to part....
Asked HIM can we still be frens. He said yes. So I tried my luck to ask him go Chinese Garden with me during Mid-Autumn. Those who are close to me u will know why Mid-Autumn means so much to me.... He rejected....
Any kind soul wld like to be wif me on Mid-Autumn?? Pls dun let me be alone on this day.....
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
My long time fren rushed dwn to meet me for lunch today when he heard abt wat happened. Thanks pal! When something happens, u get to see who realli cares for u and who r juz acquaintance. He complimented me tat I'm stronger than he imagined. Well, I cn strong n independent. But I juz love to depend on HIM. Now I cnt. I hav to buck up n be INDEPENDENT!
Called HIM today regrading the transfer of hp line. Though he no longer sounds hostile, but he sounds very sian. Sigh. Arranged to meet up on Sat to do the transfer. I dun feel like gng on my own to meet him. Wat if he brings a girl along? I hate to imagine. Argh. I feel terrible.....
Called HIM today regrading the transfer of hp line. Though he no longer sounds hostile, but he sounds very sian. Sigh. Arranged to meet up on Sat to do the transfer. I dun feel like gng on my own to meet him. Wat if he brings a girl along? I hate to imagine. Argh. I feel terrible.....
Though the thought of him makes me mad. For all those things he had done, but still, I cnt deny the fact that we do share happy times together. I also start to qn, were those happiness real? Have I wasted 4yrs with a man who lie to me right from the start? We used to be so in love wif each other (at least I tink we did lah...). Then we did all sort of stuff to hurt each other to e max. Sigh. There's no fairytale. Nobody knows wat realli happen to those 'happily ever after' stories. Such ending dun exist ba. Everyone noes time will heal all wounds. But how long will it takes? I feel anger n sorrow at e same time. I hated him for doing all those things. But there's a part of my heart still aching in pain. This pain onli emerges when I'm all alone. He's no longer there when I have a nightmare. There's no hand for me to hold on to while I slp. My mind is in a very confused state now. Whenever I thut of those sweet memories, then I'll start to qn whether were they real? Was it juz one of his act to be nice? I dunno. I juz try not to tink of him. Or anything tat got to do wif him. Like wat my cousin said, try overwritting the memory with someone new. But I'm not ready for another r/s. I still cnt believe wat he did. But the fact is, HE REALLY DID THOSE STUFF. sigh.... dear heart, pls stop aching....
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Met up wif my dearies last nite. Had dnr at MS foodcourt. Sigh... the western food we had was disappointing. 好看不好吃, 就跟人一样! I near choked on the rice loh. Then e pasta dun taste like pasta.... hur hur......After tat they accom me go get some stuff for my 'old' room. hahaha... cos I moved back le mah. Couldn't find a nice, cute dustbin to put in my room :( But bought a piggy bank instead. There's quite a few designs then HY said, "Hey got Bear de!" I replied sharply, "I dun wan Bear de!" Then they laughed. Hahaha... it became a joke...
They settled down at Mac again cos they wanted desert. I wasn't feeling hungry so onli drank green tea. Ivan was so nice to treat us :P And we decided to 'gek' Qi by taking e above pic n MMS to her. Poor her having class last nite so cnt meet us. Awww.....
We had so much fun n laughter. Thanks for e companion. I missed out so much in e past 4 yrs. Now I hav lots of time to rekindle the gd old times wif them. Ivan was eating the hot fudge sundae. It reminds me of us when we were young. Eating sundae today. Ivan says, somehow it tastes better back then.... Things change, ppl change. But family dun change. I love u guys. Thanks for everything :D
Monday, August 11, 2008
Although I no longer have him in my life, I'm still blessed de. I have my wonderful family who is always there for me no matter where n when. Even if I call them in the wee hrs :) They give me hugs n make me laugh. Though I noe u dunno how to express ur concern but u made me laugh real hard n right from my heart last nite. I was not able to even smile for e whole of last week.
All my frens who are concern. Though I din wanna say much, they still show their concern, try to make me smile. And some real touching moments...
I din wanna talk abt it anymore so dun ask. But I wld be glad if u hav time to lend me n ask me out :) I DUN WAN TO BE LEFT ALONE. I noe I'm not cos I hav all of u by my side.
Love u all!!!
All my frens who are concern. Though I din wanna say much, they still show their concern, try to make me smile. And some real touching moments...
I din wanna talk abt it anymore so dun ask. But I wld be glad if u hav time to lend me n ask me out :) I DUN WAN TO BE LEFT ALONE. I noe I'm not cos I hav all of u by my side.
Love u all!!!
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